have you ever wanted to injure or kill yourself because of

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Something someone said About your Autism or just in general.

yes

I've had 11 years worth of self-harm problems and three suicide attempts.
I can't think of any specific examples, but I'm sure I can credit a lot of self-harm episodes to derogatory comments somebody made in relation to my AS.

No, usually when someone said something like that I wanted to kill them. Some people are alive today not knowing how close they actually came to meeting their maker.

On the flip side, the only times I've wanted to die is when my depression became unbearable. But, at some point it lets up and you move on.

Regularly. But you can't let the b!tches win.

when i was a teenager, i ate the entire contents of my christmas stocking in one sitting because i was upset over something someone said about a friend. these days, things people say don't bother me that much. i have to be face with homelessness or something of similar gravity to consider suicide.

Honestly, I think that shows a failure on the spectrumite for identifying so staunchly as such, your autism should never be the focus-point of who you are. It's like when minorities get offended at non-existent slights, they are so fixated into being this person in such a concentrated dose, that this image becomes their entire world, but we all know people are much more than just their skin color, and autistics are much more than how their brains are simply wired.

I had years of cutting self harm. Now I don't cut but when I have meltdowns I end up with bruises all over me. I have had people say I do it for attention that but that is bullsh*t because my meltdowns are uncontrollable reactions to severe anxiety (sensory overload etc).

I have had several suicide attempts when I had exacerbations of psychosis.

Can't say I have. I'm mostly disgusted about how stupid people can be. I might say something to tick them off. But a lot of the time they're too stupid to "get it" anyway.

Every day.

Just a while I was listening to a local radio program I listen to everyday.. some guy called in to answer their question, and really was struggling to keep conversation, then somehow managed to change the topic to my little pony. They were making fun of him the entire call and he never picked up on it, then one guy had the nerve to ask "Are you autistic?" Sure enough, he said yes. Just little things like that set off my insecurities and make me feel awful.. it's lovely to know people love to belittle autism. I've also had a close friend turn on me 2 weeks after revealing I'm autistic in the worst ways possible, then never to speak to me again.

Either way, I haven't acted on said feelings in over 8 years, and I doubt I will. But it's seriously difficult to not think about it.

I've learned through long experience to disregard insults. There's a reason why people insult you...and it almost always has NOTHING to do with you.

Yes. I hate it when people suddenly point out my quirks. It feels like a personal attack. I am always pleasant, thoughtful, kind, friendly and understanding to everyone I meet, and then all of a sudden they find something about my eccentric personality to have a problem with me and suddenly start lecturing or criticising me about it when I least expect it. Then I feel embarrassed and humiliated, and also distressed because it makes me feel like I have to tread on eggshells around them and be careful not to display this quirk again, just to keep them happy. I have felt so angry with myself over this, that I used to hit myself over the head with my hands to punish myself for being so annoying to everyone. I had to go on antidepressants because of this, as I was worried about giving myself a brain hemorrhage. I've been on meds for nearly a year and I haven't hit myself once since before I went on them.

My dad made a derogatory comment about my ability to be able to make it in the future. It made me want to kill myself for the rest of the year of 1990. In 1991, I gave up on the things that I'm known to love except for the decade and became a hippie. I chose between suicide and lowering my expectations of myself. I wisely chose the second option. Part of that was to piss my discriminating parents off.

"If this is all you expect, than this is all you get from me!"

I used to do cutting self harm until I got CBT. I still hit and bite myself sometimes out of frustration over my autism and dyspraxia.

Nothing specifically was said about the autism as I was only diagnosed a couple years ago, I attempted suicide when I was 15 largely because I got sick of being called 'ret*d' all the time and other insults, as well as the constant ostracism and being singled out by various teachers, my parents not getting along....sort of weird though as I did sort of have friends that year since we moved though we never really hung out outside of school and some school related activities we'd all sign up for. Maybe I had some weird logic of wanting to end it before things got even worse. Since then I have considered it because things have not really improved from there though at least I don't have to endure that disgusting public school environment anymore.

And if you are constantly reminded in school be it 40-60 hours a week of ABA or bullying and at home receiving the message that your autism or your autistic traits bieng wrong there is a decent chance you will become suicidal and will start identifying in a negative way totally your autism. For some of us identity and the knowledge of it was not our fault has been helpful for our self image.

With so many hating on identity lately I am well past the "flirting" with resentment. Lucky for me none of my resentment is directed inward.

Some victims are more "fragile", some react stupidly because of their lack of understanding, at all times the vast majority of fault, if not all of the fault lies with tormenters