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I feel nervous...I'm waiting for the results from these jobs I applied to...so far I received rejections from half the places...the anticipation/fear are killing me...I could shove it aside and concentrate on different things...but the instability is still there...Take a deep breath...feel the support of the chair and ground...

Watch a movie or TV or something.

Nah. Try clearing your mind.

Hm. My post will be little help. I need a hug right now too. I felt the same way last week when I was in between temp assignments. It was a concentrated effort to get my mind off the anxiety of unemployment and the fear of being employed. I read, sat in front of the computer, watched TV, but felt like I accomplished nothing because I was so distracted and restless.

Then I got a call on Friday to start work this week. I looked forward to it with equal fear and anxiety. Today, my neighbor in the cubicle next to me must have heard me babbling to myself, as I was horribly bored and cursing the fact that I had to work in yet another corporate office to pay the rent. He thought I was cursing at him! Now he probably thinks I'm hateful or crazy or both. Argh! I'm so upset and unhappy. Yet I'm hoping to sleep it off and go in tomorrow with more determination to make it work. That's all we anyone can do. Go on, full steam ahead.

I'm waiting to hear about a permanent job that will fix all these embarrassing office nightmares -- I hope to work a graveyard shift with only two other people. It will be the greatest relief. It's so exhausting to keep it together every minute of the work day. I'm annoyed about today, but I was so exhausted from all the socializing on the first day plus daylight savings...It's impossible to explain. I hope this is my last job in a corporate office.

Anyway, relax, lie down, and listen to music. Music is the best way for me to relax and recharge.

Hey, thank you so much, ahayes, calandale, Rita_, MeshGearFox. I'm still not hearing anything, but I feel much better today.
I am listening to meditation/relaxation music and it's helping me relax...I guess I should rent Angels in America and settle down and watch it...It's a six hour movie that I've been wanting to see for several weeks...
I rarely watch TV...that's why I'm trying to sell my TV...but then again people has been giving me advice that it is better to have a TV even though I never turn it on...well, my TV has a VHS, so I guess that's helpful...I watch DVD on my computer...
Anyway, MeshGearFox I hope everything turns out well in your job...working at Graveyard sounds interesting and poetic...

Good luck.