Why don't you like to talk?

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I don't like talking to people in real life. Brief forum discussions are ok. But I hate it when people try to have texting conversations with me, and I dread my phone ringing (I hate phone conversations). The worst is a face to face conversation (with exception of seeing my social worker or psychiatrist as that is purely professional).

I don't like talking to people because I hate small talk, processing verbal language is very laborious for me, and talking generally agitates me. I prefer to be alone or just in professional company.

My dad is staying over for 9 days but he has autistic traits himself (not enough for a diagnosis but he definitely has traits), so he quite likes just reading his newspapers in silence while I read my textbooks in silence. We don't talk much. That is how we prefer it.

I have purposefully "ended" several old friendships so that I don't have to socialise or talk to people.

What is your reason for not liking conversation?

Mostly it seems pointless to me. Small talk isn't actual communication - it isn't undertaken for the purpose of exchanging information, but for the sake of exchanging the social meta-data that accompanies any communicative exchange, regardless of the information-content of said exchange.

I think that NTs derive pleasure from the processing of this social meta-data (and some may be addicted to it). Personally I don't.

Whereas most of the time, the things I am interested in communicating about, others aren't.

Small talk, I don't get it, I'm completely useless at it.

Half the time I hear what a person says but I don't actually get what they say, either it sounds like they didn't even speak actual words or I thought they said something completely different. Also sometimes I hear them correctly but have no idea what they're asking me, like I don't actually understand, even though I known everything the question or whatever doesn't make sense to me.

Speaking is not my strong point, sometimes I can't figure out which words I want to say, other times I have the words but just can't seem to speak them, other times I have the words and I can speak them but they don't come out in the right order, other times I start to speak but then can't finish off the sentences as I can't quite figure out the words the I need and end up repeating one word like a stammer a good 10/20 before I finally speak the words I need and other times it's fine.

I am also not great at following conversations.

Forums I tend to be fine replying to threads but conversations and discussions within threads with people is tricky, it often takes me quite a while to figure out what they've said, how I reply to that and which words are best to use.

And anything professional that's worse, I just feel so awkward and I don't know how to sit, where to put my hands and it just doesn't work, I usually just sit and nod.

I don't like social stuff.

Language doesn't come naturally to me. I have a good vocabulary but I can often find it difficult to find the right words during a conversation due to stress, boredom and sometimes I think too quickly for words. I find speaking is incredibly slow, imprecise and frustrating in general. I really get frustrated when I have to repeat things to people. I think I probably speak too quickly in general or too slowly when I'm stammering. I think of communicating as exchanging information and opinions but that's not what socialising is for NTs.

Small talk is something that i dislike A LOT. God, just a few days ago i needed to readjust my schedule (like the time to go get the bus) just to get the smallest possible chance to see someone that would want to chat with me while waiting.
But i don't hate to talk. I actually like to discuss stuff about my special interests or any subject that has a direction and some relevance to discuss. But if i could choose i would surely always choose to discuss and interact through text. Face to face conversations can drain me way faster and require way more efforts to work.

Takes about 20 seconds for me to find coherent sentences, not really conducive for normal conversations, so I'm content with text communication, where timing and flow isn't all that important, and sometimes I don't even have anything to say.

I don't like to talk because people don't like to listen.

Generally, I don't like small talk at all. I don't mind talking about my interests, though. At least verbally, I find it hard to figure out what I want to say fast enough to have a conversation about a subject I don't know well.

I do like having text conversations. I'm much more comfortable having conversations via text vs verbally. For some reason, have a hard time having conversations about personal and emotional subjects verbally, but have no problems through text. I think it's because I can type out my thoughts, re read and edit them before sending the text.

I like to yammer on about my special interests and debate things like politics and religion. What I don't like is typical NT small talk, because it seems pointless and uninteresting to me.

If I'm serious, people wont take me seriously enough.
If I'm trying to make a joke, they either panic or get angry, they rarely laugh. I don't get their jokes either.
If people can't hear me, telling me to rise my voice a bit. And so I did, then accuse me for yelling.
People almost can't distinguish about me; between being angry, frustrated, excited, or panicking.
I don't get small talks. What are they for again?
I mean what I say. But it's not the same to them, as usual.
If one tells me to talk, they end up telling me to shut up.
Some people tells me to keep up in certain things. Certain things like what? Celebrities' social statues? Actors' scandals? Was that their obsessions?
They don't want deep, serious, informative talks; and they hold back if so. But then, I learned, they end up feeling more exposed than the literal physical form of it. Hmm.
They want you to look at them when talking. But they're not doing anything else but talk. So why look to distract myself when my ears are on them?
Group talks? Once my turn is over, I'll leave.

Overall, I don't like talking, as much as I'm bad at it. And I don't feel well if I'm socializing too long and too much. This is why I prefer 'small talks' or 'random chit chats' online. That way, I don't end up being drained.
And the main reason why I own a cellphone, it's only because to make my mom stop worrying.

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Part of the problem lies in the fact that I hate social situations. I don't feel this way around siblings because I am used to being around them. I also don't feel this problem when I am around my autistic friends because I understand them well enough to know they hate it too.

This is why I have minimal contact with others when necessary. Online communications and texts feel different than regular conversations as well.

The physical action of talking is fatiguing, and people are too stupid, too stubborn, and too prone to not listening to be worth the effort most of the time. They often don't want to talk about anything, and instead use conversation filler to feel you out and other duplicitous NT shite. Now that I'm onto their games, I don't trust them, feel repulsed by them, and have begun to view conversation as something rather intimate that I will save for someone deserving of my time and effort.

Participating in a discussion wears me out. If someone questions me I'll begin to get anxious and stammer. That happened to me recently when I was giving a talk that just happened to be on my special interest. Someone blurted out that they thought I was wrong on a point. That was it for me...I managed to salvage the talk but it was all downhill from that point.

Small talk also takes a toll on me. I see no point in just chatting...if you have information for me then by all means come and tell me. Otherwise I'm very content to sit quietly and, in fact, prefer to do so.

I don't know what to say. It's hard for me to talk about the stuff others are sense I'm not interested or have experience.