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Hi all,

I have been reading here for a while off and on and finally decided to just dive in and join...kind of nervous.

Not sure where to start exactly, and I have a big problem with just dumping waay too much information all
at once so trying not to do that. At least typing slows my brain down just enough where I'm not starting a
sentence, and then a few words in realizing I want to say something else first, and switch tracks, and then
do it again a few seconds later...I think I confuse people a lot some times.

Do I have AS, or some autism spectrum variation, or do I just have run-of-the-mill horrible horrible horrible
social skills?

I don't know exactly, and have spent a large part of my life trying to figure out what is my deal, exactly.
I started reading up on autism spectrum and Asperger's a few years back, and could relate to some things
I read about but not everything necessarily. But I suppose that's part of it, right, that everyone's issues are
just a little bit different, I don't know...

I also have a big chunk of gender identity issues mixed in there somewhere (along with a half pint of ADHD and
a swirl of OCD, and who knows what else... o right, I forgot my wonderful bee phobia) So while I am
technically biologically male I suppose, i have a real hard time relating to the way that most 'typical' guys think
and act, and always feel very 'outside' from social interactions. But although I am endlessly fascinated by
all (well, most) things feminine, I don't really feel like I have a female brain either - sort of a mix maybe?
Makes it very hard to relate to people - I really don't like gender stereotypes and most of what men are 'supposed'
to do and like and think seems reeeeeaaaalllly pointless to me.

I suppose that's a good start. - Rebecca

too much?

Oh also,
from http://rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php

Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 153 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 63 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)

I had to answer 1 to a lot of the questions, I wasn't sure. I felt like some of those should be essay answers, but
I guess that would defeat the purpose of an online test, right? Kind of hard to score it automatically
then I suppose.

Is it weird that I wanted the test to be longer? I was just getting into a groove, and then, that's all the questions?
Oh.

Hi there Rebecca!

I love the way you block out your written words. I can really see when your mind is trailing and it helps me understand why you're saying what you are, and why you use the words that you do.

I have similiar "issues" with gender sterotypes. I think Aspies in general look past gender to see the practical application of human beings underneath, while most NT have a stronger sense of "doing what you're suppoosed to."

Being female, I've always assumed that I've gotten away with more "gender-bending" than would be allowed if I were born a boy, so I'm so curious what it's like on the other side of this coin.

Welcome Rebecca!

Hey Rebecca welcome.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

It's not too much at all. You seem like a really funny and cool person and a good writer.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!