Adamantium wrote:
I have days like that, but other days when I am very efficient and get a lot done.
I think this falls under the general category of problems with "executive function" but I don't really understand how it works or why it is so variable for me.
I get overwhelmed with detail sometimes, and what had been nicely diagrammed pathways and relationships in my mind becomes a tangled mess like a knot of old fishing line.
I think maybe the days when I most productive are the days when I have a few well defined things that I can really focus on for hours at a time. Alternatively, I can do a lot of trivial things, such as answering small emails or copy files to different servers--but trying to both kills my ability to do either.
It's very depressing when I have big plans and end up having next to nothing to show for a day. It's exhilarating when I am able to really get stuff done. I am hoping that paying more attention to how this change happens will allow me to avoid more of the "can't get there from here" days and have more of the "victory is mine!" days.
I can definitely relate. I get overwhelmed with detail easily, and I too feel depressed whenever I set out to accomplish certain things, and end up having nothing to show for it by the time the day is over. I would feel so much better about myself if I actually had the ability to get things DONE. This is an extremely hard issue to explain to people, because most people can't relate to it. Whenever I've complained about this issue in the past, people tell me "then just do it and get it over with!", as if it's as easy as flipping a switch.