How much do you suffer?

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All your pride set aside, generally speaking about your overall life experience, how much do you suffer? 1 being none at all and 10 being absolute torment....I know we all have our up's and down's but I want the general rating you would pick.

Suffer from ASD? Anxiety? Depression?

I think we need a clarification.

All of the above, mental anguish and all aspects of it included

I have no idea what the scale is based on or how it works. How do we measure our suffering?

It's hard to say...since it fluctuates and varies quite a lot, at times I could hardly claim to be suffering at all, at other times its like falling into a pit of complete misery and despair. Lately I've been doing pretty good, suffering a little bit of stress/worry but nothing too extreme.

If at 1 life is perfect and at 10 you're dying in agony (9 must be suicidal then) then this is roughly the curve of my life:

Age 0-4: 2 (I'm guessing)
Age 5-6: 3
Age 7-8: 6
Age 9: 7
Age 10-12: 9
Age 13-15: 7
Age 16-17: 4
Age 18: 1
Age 19: 5
Age 20-25: 1
Age 26-27: 9 (not suicidal but other issues)

So overall in life is 4.4 then. The suffering early in life stems from being different. The last couple of years do not.

About 6

I'd have to say a solid 8 generally, last couple months haven't been that bad, but if I had to scale myself for the last 3 years it would definitely be an 8. Before that it would have been like a 9 or 10, my childhood really sucked.

Over the past 10 years, I would say around a 10. This healthcare system is always pushing the limits to see how much they can make me suffer.

Lol, leave it to an autistic to categorize and deconstruct a simple question. Kudos to you sir, you definitely don't need to second guess your diagnosis.

I suffered between a 5-10 on the quoted criteria from when I was a child until I was about 25. Pretty much every day was bad including a lot of suicidal days. After that not so much, just a meltdown or shutdown from time to time since. I know most medical professionals will say it's not "healthy" but I learned to be really apathetic towards things relating to my life and that's helped me to not suffer so much. Right now it's like a 0.5.

I think my life is pretty damn perfect. There's the odd moment where I feel like I'm a complete failure and will never amount to anything but 99% of the time I'm extremely content with my life. I put two.

I think an age scale is pretty useful, actually.

1. Ages 0-5---Surprisingly, I suffered pretty extremely. My memories of that time consist of a great fear/dread and the omnipresent smell of vomit. There was no way for me to ease my suffering. Probably at least an 8

2. Ages 5-8--Not too bad. Mostly 4-5. There were times when I was hit when I didn't know what I did wrong--or I was teased/bullied in school. It would go up to about a 7 then.

3. Ages 8-10--A little better. Was teased and bullied somewhat. Had a "best friend." Sucked at sports. Enjoyed myself at times for the first time. Mostly 3-5

4. Ages 11-14--Not too good at all. Was bullied and teased more extremely. Used to get blamed for all that sometimes. Lost my "best friend." Had problems in school. Got thrown out of class a lot. Gained weight. Became isolated. Probably 5-7.

5, Ages 14-15--A little better. Had a growth spurt, lost weight, started getting interested in girls. Bullied and teased less. Did okay in school. Had a girlfriend in summer camp. Had a memorable makeout session at 15. Made a couple of friends. Probably mostly 3-4

6. Ages 16-17--Not too good. Ostracized in high school. Couldn't get girls. Stayed short. No friends. Ran away from home a couple of times. Up to a 7 at times.

7. Age 17-18--A little better in my senior year. Lost my virginity. Had a girlfriend--she had problems, though. Ostracized less. Didn't care about my height anymore. Graduated high school. 3-5

8. Age 19-20--Better still. Got a permanent job. Moved out. Lived with my girlfriend. Broke up with my girlfriend after a brief "engagement." Not too bad. 3-5, though mostly 3.

9. Age 20's--Not too bad. 3-4

10. Age 30's--Same. Started college. Learned to drive. Life's normal problems. 3-4

11. Age 40's--Finished college. Settled into a routine. Wasn't making any progress. 3-4

12. About five years ago--Had financial problems, tax problems. Came close to getting tax lien. Up to a 9, though mostly in the 5-6 range.

13. Now--Less financial problems. Having problems with the wife. Gaining weight. Getting a little old. 3-5

I put myself at a 7, because all in all I don't feel like I've been filling my purpose in life yet, still trying to figure out what I want with my life and it's really stressful not having a target to aim at.

I just feel lost, misunderstood, and afraid....I feel in love with someone once, she was my ultimate drug. After we met things starting moving really fast and we instantly clicked. I literally felt high for months straight, and I thought the whole "love thing" was BS until I met her. Usually when ever I said "i love you" to someone I was with it was because I felt obligated to after she started saying it first, I never really felt like I meant it. When I told this girl I loved her I meant it, and I felt it. That's the only time I felt like life was how it should be, because I had someone to share it with, someone to understand me, and I think if I don't find that again I'll die probably die unhappy.

Nothing's really been the same since, but at least I know it can get better. Maybe I gotta learn to love myself first, I dunno, that one's a little harder to do.

Dam, must be nice..... Coulda just said life is good. Talk about rubbing the salt in the wound bro. lol

6.75
The last several years have been rough. Feel like I'm pretty much just existing. Don't recall the last time I've truly been happy and without worry. I have been grateful many times and continue to count my blessings. Still try to remain positive.

That's a pretty precise figure, you sure it's not 6.80? j/k lol I feel ya on "just existing" kinda sucks, but you never know what's around the corner....