Why keep holding on?

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Getting so tired of trying when there's no hope or future for me.

I have felt the same way in the past. It is worth it. What is your current situation that makes you feel this way?

I'm worthless due to not making $20+ an hour so I can't be loved or have a family.
I have so much money problems it makes any job I might get put me into losing money instead of making it. So finding work offers no pros.

I don't have any friends to hang out with. I spend all my time alone and sad in my tiny room except for when I go out to work or get something from store both which depress me from seeing and talking to all the women. So I go home and cry or cry in car.

There are five basic human needs that everyone needs to be happy. They are 1.to love and be loved or connection
2. Freedom or the ability to choose
3. To feel important or needed
4. To survive
5. Variety or fun
A lack in any of these can cause depression or who knows what. In my first and second semester of college I was as solitary as an oyster and I longed for this particular girl to date, yet I did not engage in any meaningfull way. I was depressed and I had anxiety up the wazoooh. I then sat down and thought. are my needs being met. From lack of love and being loved and from lack of importance I found that I was missing two of these five needs. I then thought Is my plan that I am currently doing providing for these needs. Of course they weren't. So I then created a plan on how to gain these needs. I am a nerd and I like minecraft, so I used this to my advantage and I hung out with some friends/people who played minecraft. I then created plans of how to make more friends and how to address this girl. I found that I was able to create a plan and act on it in a way that met my needs. If I feel lonely or unloved I find a fellow whoovian and talk about Dr. who or something that gets me talking to people. Even if it was just nerds on a lord of the rings minecraft server. So what I would do in your situation is look at it and ask if your needs are being met. From your post you said you feel worthless and have no friends. This shows that you do not feel loved and you do not feel important. This tells me that two of these needs are in need of being met. So I would then see if my current plan is allowing these needs to be met. If not than what can you do about it. Be it going to a public place and sitting in a corner with a computer just to be out there. I am not you so I don't know, but I would just take it one step at a time. This process is not over night and takes a while. The good part is that it is easy and it should help. Anyway I hope this helps, but just be patient and allow yourself to ease into your plan comfortable as we hate change due to our "nature".

Sly, break out of the aloneness and connect. You will know your group when you find it - whether it is a Meet-Up group, a 12 step, a support group of some kind, a special interest group, whatever. Only connect. You can do it. The time has come to make that leap into new possibilities. Your life is telling you to create change, not to end it. Take heart.

Regard this crisis point as the doorway opening to change. Go through the door. Crisis is opportunity, as the Chinese say..

We're your friends!
we're your real friends
Weve all gone home alone and cried alone
or cried in the car

I've done the same things as the above poster. WP is full of our sort of people....who only seek a chance to succeed.

B19 is right, Sly. From reading your posts over the last few months, you've been feeling this way for a while now, so I think it's time for you to take that step and connect with a group of some kind. Most people on WP have experienced what you're experiencing, which is why we've been urging you to get out and meet people.

It's not easy, we all know that. But it will make you feel better about yourself. People here like you and appreciate your qualities, so there's no reason why people you meet IRL won't do the same.

Just take it slowly. Maybe go to a group once or twice a month and see how you get on. Get to know a few people, find someone with similar interests, and take it from there. It's definitely worth the effort.

You have a lot to offer, Sly. Believe that.

It's tough sly, I dunno. Material things only mean so much, the only reason to care about them is their utility and the status that it gives you which is not to discount its value in the least but all I really care about is being happy and it'd hard doing things on your own. What is the purpose of all this? The idea of "following your dreams" and pursuing whatever interests you only works if you have some sort of passion like that for something semi-applicable and I really don't. There really isn't a lot of options out there for adults on the spectrum, I live in a pretty huge city and there isn't much out there it seems or at least I don't know how to find it. There are a lot of people like you, like us, on this site and in the world so we're not total freaks and we're not completely alone. It's too bad everybody seems to live so far away, online seems just as impossible now with social media mirroring real life and I don't know how to navigate it any better.

Yes I agree with B19's sentiment, change something in your life. You don't have to change who you are per say as I know that's something you've said you wouldn't do in the past. Something I wouldn't do either

Problem is there aren't any groups in my area . Voc rehab is trying to make me go to classes but they are on the other side of the next city and at the same times I work. I'm not losing my current job or this possible job for those.

I've tried meetup and there's nothing there for me. It's a liberal minded site it seems , lots of writing and liberal arts type groups. I'm a video game playing , gun owning, movie watching guy. The only interesting ones I can't afford as I can't leave my city or fly to Italy to take a walk.

I don't make friends at work which seems to be how people do it. Anyways getting out depresses me because there's no men only stores or men only groups.

Also yeah I have material things and they useful but only provided short term happiness. It's fun to get new things and open them also anxious too.

I may try to find a way to have someone else get my groceries so I never have to go out besides work.

Hang in there, we love you!

Yeah Man....ask a chick to a picnic!

If you are not ready to form new relationships with people, perhaps you could consider forming a new relationship with an animal or something else - this could be something as small as pet mice, or even some goldfish. Whatever it is, however small, as long as it is something to care for, and care about, and interact with in a meaningful way. We all need something to care for beyond ourselves. Some people do this by volunteering in one way or another, or joining a group committed to positive change, or spiritual purpose, or gardening/environmental (caring about and forming a relationship with nature). Whatever - accept the challenge to form some new relationship beyond the boundaries of your self. Doing so is a fundamental change in our relationship to the world and to ourselves. If your only relationship is with your inner self, you are placing yourself in a vulnerable situation which is likely to always be painful. The good news is that you can change this in a day, in an hour.

Well cars dead again so now I a have nothing going for me