At this point I'm not even surprised over the fact that our country, North America, as a whole, has failed us yet again in the realm of employment. It has been my discovery that I am going to more than academic and financial resources which I have. Most of all, I need people. I need a team of people specially trained in autism to help me achieve success in the workforce.
I have no problems conforming to NT social behavior standards when I am able to. But I need the employer to be understanding and meet me halfway.
I don't even have all the different areas where AS affects me figured out yet.............I need a Job Coach who specializes in Autism and Asperger Syndrome in regards to employment. I also need to meet with other people trained in autism who can assist me with day to day living because at this point, my life is starting to fall apart.
Everything I've worked so hard to build will rot into nothing if I don't get the following
(1) Face to face relationships and support with other specialists trained in dealing with autism (I need this)
(2) Academic resources teaching me how to deal with Autism on the job (I have that)
(3) Financial resources that will enable me to live more comfortably and pay for services that I need ( I have that)
(4) Motivation (I have that)
(5) Will ( I have that)
(6) Courage ( I have that)
(7) The ability to figure out what I need in order to obtain successful employment ( I think I'm starting to get that)
Right after college I should've been INSTRUCTED on where to turn to next for employment services. Don't get me wrong I still have a good relationship with my old Disability Services Office Coordinator and he helps out where possible but he can only do so much. And it is irritating him that I still need him like I did when I was a student. Should he have to continue helping me the way he did when I was an undergrad?!?!?!??! NO HE SHOULDN'T.
I'm 36 years old with a bachelors degree and a technical training certificate and I'm working as a f*****g JANITOR!! !!
And I don't need anybody to tell me that I'm worth something. I KNOW I'M WORTH SOMETHING!! !!
You know what I would like for Christmas?!?!?!?! I would like to hold a press conference at the White House and I would like to explain to Joe and Jane Q Public what the difficulties are in dealing with Asperger Syndrome....
Then I would like to say, "on behalf of all the parents, educators, students, adults, and family members either dealing with or helping someone with autism and Asperger syndrome I would like to say, THANK YOU FOR BEING UNEDUCATED ABOUT THE SUBJECT, THANK YOU FOR DISCRIMINATING AGAINST US,"
And finally I would say this, "FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART......GOOOOOOOO SCREEEEEEEEEEWWWW YOURSELVES!! !! !)
Good night and thank you for reading this rant.