Scary situation, need help escaping! Please help

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I'll try to keep this as short as possible, its a complicated problem.

I know someone who gets me heroin and we use together. Im 24. I only smoke it he injects.
He started to get attracted to me and then obsessive. Hes 30 i think. I told him i dont want a relationship but somehow he just started touching me and kissing me. I reciprocated unfortunatley as i didnt know what to do so i just felt dead inside or like a ragdoll and let him touch me because i didnt know what to say to get him to stop he was being too much and wouldnt listen and i got overwhelmed. I dont have feelings for him. He still touches me in places and clings to me which i find very stressfull. When i say i want to go so i can have some time to recharge by myself he physically clings to me and says or whines ''no'' or flips emotionally which i find scary and makes me feel like i cant leave.

Sometimes i shake and shiver from stress but he ignores it i think he takes it personally when i say i want to go home.
A week ago i blocked his number and cut myself off from the neighbourhood. Thinking it was my support worker knocking on the door today i opened it to find it was him. I had to lie and say i lost my phone as i was scared to tell him the truth. I am pathetic and too submissive and social anxiety makes it so hard to navigate these situations. I have to adopt a different persona which is exhausting.

After a week or so of being in this 'relationship' he all of a sudden said he loves me which is ridiculous. I feel like i cant just cut myself off again as he would probably be more persistant in trying to contact me. Im really scared and overwhelmed.

How can i escape him i find his smothering clingy touching really unpleasant and stressful? Im getting upset now thinking about it. He wants me constantly with him. Please help id rather have no heroin than put up with this.

I just feel really scared. He has not abused me hes just obsessesed i think. HELP!! !

Stop using and he won't find you the least bit interesting to be around anymore.

Im not sure that would happen, hes not a dealer he doesnt profit hes just a middle man sort of thing. He has alot of money as he has a big inheritance he just received in the last couple of months. Im sorry for this stupid problem i have invited this because of my social defects and poor life choices. I am also terrified of making men angry or not pleasing them. I am an anti feminist nightmare i hate myself. He expects me over at his place tomorrow im too afraid not to go. I will try what you say though and tell him i dont want any.

Thank you for taking the time to read and reply.

Even if he's not dealing, just stopping use would probably be enough. I mean when you're on heroin do you want to spend time around stone cold sober people? Exactly, and he'll be the same. That being said, I'm sure quitting heroin is easier said than done. Or you can always cheat a little and say "I'm quitting, which means that I need to cut out all users from my life so I can be successful in my goal to stop." Obviously if you continue to use then he's no longer an option at that point, but it does cut that tie for good.

I watch this show called "Intervention" and one of the things people who use want is someone to use with them. In this show, if there are two people using and one goes into treatment and stops using, most of the time the two will split ways. Stopping what you're doing is up to you, but tell him you have decided to stop and then cut all ties. If he comes around - call the police. Thing is people who are on drugs are unpredictable in their behavior and he may show up when you leave your house. That's where conceal and carry comes in. Nothing good comes out of using drugs. Goodluck to you.

This guy sounds dangerous. Do you have anyone you trust that you can talk to and will help you? To me it sounds like you should get a restraining order against him, but I do not know the process for getting that. If I were you I would not go to his place, but if you think he will track you down for not coming over do everything you can to protect yourself. Invite someone you trust over, lock your door and don't answer it unless you know it is not him. If he threatens you and you feel safe calling the police, then call the police. Can your support worker help you?

What about telling your support worker about it? They should have advice, contacts, and knowledge.

Thanks for the support everyone, i rang my cousin and she helped me phrase a text to him so i at least dont have to see him today. Luckily i am not physically addicted to the heroin just probably mentally addicted as it helps me sleep and calms my social anxiety, but being with him is so stressful the trade off is not worth it. I have had big meltdowns because of him and get hysterical and suicidal, i almost took a bloody paracetamol overdose because of it even though i have researched it and know it is a painful, slow, horrible way to go.

My cousin is studying health and social care and has a kid with autism she is the one member of my family who has some understanding. I feel very grateful for that.

QuiversWhiskers, i will also tell my support workers about it for extra advice. Again, thanks everyone i feel slightly more in control now. Mods you can close this thread if you wish, im sort of new to forums (never joined one before) so dont know if thats what you do or not.

I pray that you stay away from that drug, it has pretty much wiped out my entire peer group from where I grew up and changed people who I thought were real friends into treacherous thieves and manipulative liars who destroy every relationship they have in their life except the one they have with that drug.

What scares you about this man, do you think he is dangerous? Tell the punk you're not interested and if he comes around again you'll call the cops, either that or maybe find a few male relatives to remind of that too. The reason he is coming back is the drug, he knows eventually nothing else will matter and then you'll be his.

I'm sure you've heard it all before but it's just something that has brought a lot pain into my life, addiction effects more than just yourself and it really depresses me seeing someone else my age going down that same path. Good luck and stay safe.