Am I lazy? or am I just uninterested

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Hello all. I have been feeling this way for quite some time now and just thought I'd post it to
get some feed back. In 2012 I left my job in the video game industry. It was something I was
passionate about and thought I would do for the rest of my life. I got burnt out though and
afterwards told myself, I need to do a job that requires no stress or responsibility. That is
how I found construction. For the past 4 years I have been doing general labour (mostly cleanup
and moving material). I'm finding I am having difficulty doing jobs which require responsibility
and effort. I have days I wake up and can't think even if my life depended on it. I had a job
for a while during these 4 years where I installed operable wall tracks but left that because it
became too much. I tell myself that if I can't do simple things like that then what future do I have.
I have an overwhelming feeling of exhaustion lately. People tell me that life is hard but that's
just life so I have to deal with it. That advice doesn't seem to work though, it just makes me
feel more defeated.

I have been working on a novel in my spare time and I am motivated to do that and would like it to
succeed. I have been thinking of taking time off and launching a crowd sourcing campaign for it. My
question is, What is going on inside my head? Is something broken or is this just the way I am?

It's possible that you are experiencing depression. Lack of motivation, feeling overwhelmed, exhausted and defeated all sound like symptoms of depression to me.

Many people aren't aware of the signs of depression, and that they can vary from person to person.

It could also be poor executive functioning that makes it hard for you to become motivated, or to work on things that you are not interested in. Poor executive functioning can also make it more difficult to deal with stressful situations; it may make working more difficult because it requires more mental effort to be responsible and keep track of multiple things at once.