jewelie wrote:
Does anyone LIKE porn, or use it themselves?
no & no.
jewelie wrote:
It scares me, always has.
yeah, me too.
Intellectual, analytically, I'm "okay with" the idea of porn (for other people). Personally, viscerally, reflexively, I'm disgusted by it. Written words don't bother me much-pictures/images/sounds completely frighten & revolt me. So, I collect textbooks & guidebooks that I can read & study to try to struggle against what frightens me about these things. Have never watched a "porno" flick nor would I, displeasing graphics stick in my brain & I don't need that data.
My p.o.v. is contradictory/inconsistent because I believe sex & the body ought not be shameful, yet I feel great shame about these aspects of reality. Can't get my opposite reactions about this to smoothly integrate into a moderate "in-between" stance.
Depictions (of other people's bodies doing things) are incompatible (distracting & makes me more self-conscious in a negative way) with my enjoying my own activities/sensations. It's all very paradoxical, what I am & am not comfortable with.
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