idk why i exist, i hate having aspergers, people dont care about me. my grades in school are terrible, people call me wierd creepy, i have no friends, i now sit by myself at lunch because people i thought was my friends are always so mean to me. ik im ugly because the people have spoken. every year in school. my family in the house are inconsiderate of my feelings and emotions, they never take the time to hear me out and u.n.d.e.r.s.t.a.n.d my side of the story. my family has no real knowledge of aspergers so when they (without my permission) tell someone what i have, they would say "yea he has aspergers, has problems talking to people, thats y hes so quiet"....when i hear one of my famiy members say something like that i just pisses me off 2 the max because they dont even know the basics to it. my mom act like she cares but when im in trouble she always make it seem im wrong for doing things and she says the meanest things in the world to me, she barely knows what (a.s) is. my family is stupid, n i wish i could kill them at times but there r consuquences for that. people think i get mad over small stuff but its not small 2 me. i wish i could tell people how i feel, whats going on, what my problem is, how their words and actions shatter my spirit, but i cant because i never had a real friend before. nobody knows anything about me because i keep a mask on all this till im alone and at times will cry to myself or rant, i could break some stuff ot of anger. i could go on about more but i wont bore u anymore
09 Nov 2016, 12:26 am
