Dear_one wrote:
When I work fast, I start thinking about the next step as I do the current one. When I'm slow, I think about something else when I get a chance, and then have to remember the job at hand at each interlude. Sometimes, I'm distracted by a current worry, but it can also be a general sense of missing the big picture. Perhaps your excursions are just time to integrate new information or to avoid overload and meltdown.
I find thoughts just "come up" but sometimes it's not even thinking about anything, just focusing on a sensation/nothing and repeating a single word or a piece of music in my head. Maybe it's a way to avoid overload/meltdown but I am not sure if it is an effective way toward that goal, especially if it slows down my work a lot? I also do this in the morning, which does not make sense in terms of that context.
My autistic husband (who is not depressed or anything) does the same thing. He just suddenly zones out and thinks during tasks. I think we do it any time there is some transition involved. This happens even though I make elaborate lists of what is to be done throughout the day. However, I can't always get everything done within the expected timeframe because of said inefficiency. You can't even break down within activities like that (e.g., shifting from one area of the kitchen to another while cooking) using lists anyway.
I tried to talk to professionals about this before but they tend to assume that all of these thoughts are "anxious". They are not and I am tired of trying to prove to people that I do not have an anxiety disorder.
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Leading a double life and loving it (but exhausted).
Likely ADHD instead of what I've been diagnosed with before.