I'm 20 years old. Ever since I was small I have struggled with social interactions. And I am a little clumsy, lacks hand eye coordination,etc. I am from a place where autism awareness of people is close to nil. My parents doesn't even know that something like ASD exists. There are a few autism diagnosis and help centers in the country but they are only focused on children. There are no centers for an adult to get a diagnosis, not that I'm aware of. So a few months earlier I was running blind in my case. I thought all this is a problem with my mentality and if I try harder i might get over it. But as time ran and I tried as hard as I could, since there was no progress, I got really frustrated to the point that I disgust myself for not being able to make friendships, go in front of a crowd, and basically, being the odd one out. Then I accidentally found out about autism and as I dig deeper, I got the feeling that this is exactly what is wrong with me. After I got more insight into ASD I realized that I might have Asperger. But there is no way to conform it, just my judgment. I don't know how I could explain this fact to my parents, who always thought I should overcome these insecurities myself. They think that if I'm unable to get over it it is the lack of my mental strength. So, I decided to keep quiet about this and seek help online. That's why I'm here in WP. I have always been a bright student. Now I'm an undergraduate engineering student. No matter how much successful I'm in academics I fail everywhere else. I have people that I call friends but never was able to build a close relationship with them. I hope you guys will help me to get over with my frustration.