Hello Wrong Planet, I come in peace.
It dawned on my a few years ago that there was an actual name for my self assessment of being "not wired up the same as most people", something I voiced frequently from the age of about 4. After a couple of friends whose kids had had been through the AS diagnosis system assumed I knew that I was autistic, I researched out of curiosity and had a eureka moment. My constant outsider-looking-in feeling, ongoing sleep problems, years of going to GP's about feeling overwhelmed/out of place/exhausted etc etc was explained, bonzer high score on the AQ thingy, and my appointment for official diagnosis is on Monday. I'm part looking forward to it, part fearful that they'll tell me that I'm just a bit cr*p at being a human . I'm a single mum and work part time, so life is quite full on and I do struggle to keep plates spinning and maintain enough of my marbles to be able to function. I am too damn good at masking - I'm hoping having an official diagnosis will help me to progress, process, and thrive. All positive thoughts and encouragement gratefully accepted.