Lua by Brighteyes
You looking skinny like a model
With your eyes all painted black
Just keep going to the bathroom
Only say you'll be right back
Well it takes one to know one kid
I think you've got it bad
But what's so easy in the evening
By the morning it's such a drag
Got a flask inside my pocket
We can share it on the train
And if you promise to stay conscious
I'll try to do the same
Well we might die from that medicine
But we sure killed all the pain
What was normal in the evening
By the morning seems insane
And I'm not sure what the trouble was
What started all of this
The reasons all have run away
But the feeling never did
It's not something I would recommend
But it is one way to live
Cause what is simple in the moonlight
By the morning never is
It reminds me of my mid to late teens when I was suffering depression, had eating disorders and was drinking heavily and taking drugs. Every morning was a battle to get through, but each evening I became someone else and felt the need to do these crazy things to cope with being who I was.
2 bits that stand out are
'whats so normal in the evening by the morning seems insane' as that is how it felt going from the person I was late at night - drinking a lot, making myself vomit, passing out asleep - to the person I was in the morning - waking up in my parents house surrounded by my innocent childhood things, the son of 2 hard working people who just wanted the best for me.
'And I'm not sure what the trouble was, What started all of this, The reasons all have run away, But the feeling never did' as that is what it became. It almost didn't matter in the end what was making me do these things, it was who I was, it was how I got through each 24 hours.