corfe123 wrote:
After suspecting it for a long time, I have recently been formally diagnosed as autistic. I fit the profile very well...I work as a computer programmer, I'm not very good at small talk or keeping conversations going, I am have obsessive interests as well as fears and phobias, I am pretty asocial and need to retreat to the peace of solitude after too much time around people, I struggle with most social conventions, particularly where romance and love are concerned and I tend to take everything to extremes. I also suffer with rapidly cycling depression and anxiety.
Like a lot of aspie's though I feel conflicted and caught. I see a world out there of people that I don't feel any connection to. I find that very few people in life capture my interest enough that I can be bothered talking to them, yet I feel in someway like I am missing out on a lot in life.
Since my diagnosis (which was only a few weeks ago) I have alternated between feeling much more relaxed about just being me and at times feeling even more desperate and distant from life and society. It's almost like being told that I am autistic has made me appreciate for the first time the size of the task I have just surviving from day to day in this world.
Has anyone on here had similar experiences?
While I always realized I was different the diagnosis made me realize just how different.
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Professionally Identified and joined WP August 26, 2013
DSM 5: Autism Spectrum Disorder, DSM IV: Aspergers Moderate Severity
“My autism is not a superpower. It also isn’t some kind of god-forsaken, endless fountain of suffering inflicted on my family. It’s just part of who I am as a person”. - Sara Luterman
02 Sep 2018, 12:07 pm
