Anyone here scared of the thoughts they have?

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I keep thinking about someone strangling me or hitting me with a shovel. Does that make any sense? I know it's not real. That my mind is playing tricks on me. But I get scared for no reason. I don't understand my thoughts at all. I really sometimes wish I was normal instead being a sick lady.

I've had a strange, repetitive fascination with being shot for decades now. It mostly comes to me when I'm struggling to get to sleep, and always begins with feeling like I've been asked the question; "Have you ever been shot?". I have no idea where it comes from; I'm not a shoot-em-up game player, I've never watched many war or crime movies, and I live somewhere where gun crime is, thankfully, extremely rare. The scenario varies a lot, and it's usually no particular person that I imagine shooting me. My brain just seems endlessly fascinated by what it would feel like and what I would do, even though I'm aware that I can't possibly know that, and even in the fantasies, I'm far from being some kind of super-heroic Die Hard kind of character.

I once knew a guy who had a similar thing about power-tools, especially the big tooling that you get in factories. He told me that he experienced the compulsion to stick his hand into them, not as a form of self-harm, but just out of curiosity about "what it would be like."

If the thoughts are frightening you, then it's the kind of thing that counselling might help you with. But so long as you're not thinking of self-harming or believe that you deserve that as a form of punishment for something, I don't think it's anything to be too concerned about - everyone has irrational thoughts at times, and you recognise that they are irrational; that's the most important thing.

I have been scared for some time now about getting into a car accident. With the traffic here, and the number of fatal accidents that have happened, my fear has increased.

I worry about the health of family and friends all the time.

Thoughts aren't facts. You can't catch one and put it in a jar. As they have no intrinsic reality, they have no power over us...other than that which we ourselves invest in them. We can learn to impartially look at them as unreal; therefore inconsequential, ephemeral, and transient; rather like passing clouds temporarily obscuring the moon.
May you be at peace.

yes. I have a very active imagination and can easily (and in great detail) imagine car accidents and getting attacked by bears and random things like that. I find that directing my imagination in a positive direction helps alot (like watercolor painting or drawing). It sort of trains me to picture pretty things instead

I used to fantasize about doing a skewl shooting or killing docs who misdiagnosed me & I used to think about killing myself a lot. I think this was related to frustration, depression, & OCD.

I worry I won't ever be fully independent. I would like the people who believe in me to see my joy when I do reach that goal, including all of the steps I'm taking to get there.

I'm always scared of my thoughts. Sometimes I spook myself for no reason at all. I think it's pretty normal.

Yesterday I imagined I got in a fight with someone and pushed them down the stairs before dragging them out of the house... Then I realised I hadn't eaten and was starving. Maybe it goes back to the cavemen days.