Truth of the matter is, I've never had a meaningful relationship and I can't be bother to date anyone because I'm too mentally ill and no one is interested in dating me and I'm not sure what my orientation since I've never had the experience to explore it. I'm not sure if it really even matters what my orientation is. Maybe I'm kinda asexual I know I'm a lady but maybe me being asexual lady kinda explains me hatred of hearing romantic songs