I don't like being me any more

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I'm just feeling a bit down at the moment. Someone at work told me I laugh too much at strange things, like it's a bad thing. But I like to laugh. I read that laughing can be a great antidepressant, plus I'm on antidepressants too so that makes me feel like laughing more than whining.
For example, one time at work I was sitting in the staff lounge and a box fell off the shelf on it's own. When the boss came in, I said to him that the box fell, but he thought I said that the box smells. That made me laugh, although nobody else did. It's things like that what I find funny. And no, I don't laugh at inappropriate times like if someone has lost a loved one or something. I just laugh at small, random things that usually others don't laugh at.

But one of the girls told me that I am stupid because I laugh at stupid things. Now I feel self-conscious, and I wish I was more serious and only laughed at things other people laugh at. Well, I DO laugh at that also, but with all the random things I laugh at too makes people criticise that I "laugh at everything".

But if I acted calm and normal, I feel I wouldn't be me. I have ADHD, I am hyperactive and impulsive. I can't always help it.

I wish I was NT.

The smelly box made me laugh too. Anyone that attempts to put Comedy in a box and feels like they need to tell you what is and is not funny probably don't have a great sense of humor but certainly have an inflated sense of self importance. It's not funny to them, and that's where it ends because it's an opinion, not a fact.

I remember as a kid finding some things hilarious and would recall and laugh again. I quickly learned that was not OK. Later in life, and even today, people don't like me because I am "too serious." You just can't win.

But it doesn't mean you aren't an interesting and observant person or need to change yourself.

^ You are entitled to laugh at whatever you find funny. No one else needs to see the humor in it. I only hope people see the humor and find it funny when I attempt to be funny. I know it's not universal, but I hope they understand it's never meant to offend, quite the opposite.

IMO it's more important that you are someone that you like, rather than someone who avoids stepping on any toes at the price that you don't get to be the real you.

Look how much power these people have over you.
They tell you they don't like something about you and you become ashamed of yourself.
Ashamed to the point that you are willing to stop enjoying yourself in a completely lighthearted and innocent way. Nobody is being hurt by you enjoying yourself.

You are not wrong for laughing at these things. They don't understand you. The fact that they don't have the same views as you doesn't make you wrong.
The fact that they don't accept the real you doesn't make the real you bad.
Just because you feel like you need to apologize for being you because people are complaining about it doesn't mean that you actually have to.
Maybe they simply have to live with your laughing.

The girl that called you stupid sounds like a real b***h. Yes it can be hard to not care what people at work think because you have to face them day after day. I think it’s a blessing you get to laugh. It’s better than being all mopey.

I've been accused of being too serious at times & accused of laughing too much at others. I've heard both kinds of complaints from the same people but at different times. I guess I'm the opposite of what I should be when it comes to my sense of humor. Oh Well

Joe you can laugh whenever you want

Your coworker has freedom of speech. "Stupid" and "smart" have no medical definition. Anyone can call anyone "stupid". Usually when someone judges your intelligence, they are manipulative. Compliments and criticism



Having said that I, seriously find it annoying, irritating. Listening to precious lil "people" laugh uproariously at every slightest thing. A woman laughed when my CVS card fell under the conveyor belt. What the flying f**k is so funny, b***h? if those lil dipshits laugh like that, sooner or later they will "hurt" my ears or feelings


Not many things are funny. Nor should they have to be funny

Joe90,

I'm a lot like you. I laugh at things that aren't necessarily humorous, but about things that make me feel good, like cat videos or something a favorite tennis player said. That is strange to a lot of people. I'm not the kind of person who laughs out loud often, but I will laugh when I feel happy.

I'm the same way. I laugh a lot, too. I don't find anything wrong with that, and that girl you work with can keep her mouth shut if she has nothing nice to say. I feel the same way most days where I wish I could be NT. It's not easy having asperger's and living adulthood.

P.S: "the box smells" would've definitely made me laugh, too.