quite an extreme wrote:
dragonsanddemons wrote:
I have very similar problems (also probably level 2, to the best of my knowledge I wasn’t given a number at diagnosis, though). There are two kinds of inability to speak that I experience. One is where I know exactly what I want to say but no matter how hard I try, my vocal cords will not respond. The other is where I can’t even come up with words. I still live with my parents and they are dead set against me trying to use a text-to-speech app on my phone or anything (no matter how many times I tell them otherwise when I can speak, they are convinced that I’m always capable of speech and simply don’t want to talk), so I try to communicate nonverbally (gestures, nodding, smiling, etc.) when it happens, otherwise I tend to just be ignored and left to my silence.
I'm sorry to hear that. You should talk to your parents but only one of them at a time and try to stay calm if doing so. They need to become aware of your problem and that it may happen to you if talking to them.
I’ve tried. The last time I tried talking to my dad about it, he interrupted me mid-sentence to say “No, I think you just don’t
want to talk.” Fortunately it tends to come on with social anxiety or being overwhelmed, which happen less since I’m home all the time these days and usually only interacting with my family.
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