It's hard to say how I really think I should feel on the matter since it's been a brutal internship process, but all indications are that I survived the thing & may be looked at by my company later on. I'm just wrapping up the process of deleting my work life in a few minutes & then basically praying that I get something harder to do again next year.
I don't actually want to work anywhere else, when I don't challenge my engineering brain I lose my mind. I mean I know it's not easy on me but work is my escape from my social ineptitude. I avoid interactions I think I would screw up by studying or otherwise trying to do something productive. Work was a place I could reasonably hide from a social life that doesn't take me anywhere these days. Sure, I always need to become a better & better coder. I have to learn more surveying, civil engineering, robotics, et cetera BUT NONE OF THOSE THINGS BRING ME ANY CLOSER TO PEOPLE.
I know it's not healthy to just want to become an industrial IT guru overnight on top of brick & mortar engineering practice, all instead of being around people who know me. I am way too used to being alone, trying to break that habit has never been easy for me.
Ultimately I guess I have pretty good focus, but overusing it because somebody decided autistic brains can help them release better software is still a matter of being taken advantage of. What do I know anyway? 
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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos
