I want to die!!

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I HATE having Aspergers. I’m having a HARD TIME with sleeping, my pain in my feet, pain in lower legs, my ankle,my hand, but I don’t get pain in my hand all the time, I’m trying to be careful with my hand, I have more body pain. I don’t know what wrong, I don’t know what to do. I have a portable washing machine, it is very powerful (I read alot reviews) there a spinner cycle for drying clothes, it helps, but I need to hang dry too, but better than handwash, the washing machine has a draining tube, but it too small, I been using a cup & a turkey baster to scoop the water out. I hate my Aspergers too, I keep getting emotional, crying, sooo upset with myself, wishing I was dead, feeling like I’m useless, I’m an old animal wanting to put me out of misery. I have a wheelchair & a walker that I’m using, my walker broke, one of the knobs came off, I tried to fixed it, I couldn’t that when I started to cry. I’m feeling little bit better, I’m listening to Bryan Adams & my cat is on my chair, she calming me down too. Why I keep wanting to die?

Hugs... All is ok.

Kitty, it may be a cold comfort but i hurt also. many of us hurt. you are not alone, and you are not alone in hurting. those of us others that hurt, get it. keep talking to us. talking helps with the pain.

Focus on your kitty kat. [comfort]

So many posts here could have been written by many members of WP.
Though we cannot be face-to-face, or hear each other’s voices, you are not alone ; many of us could have written your post.
We do understand, and we care.

I'm so sorry that you are hurting.

Dragon hugs, and I agree with Pepe, pets can be very soothing.

Oh dear, that sounds so frustrating.
Wish there was a way to give you relief.
Hang on, know that we here do care.
Give the cat an ear scritch for us.

Hugs Kitty. Nothing beats pet cuddles... Hang in there. I was going to suggest you might want to up your Vitamin D intake, if you feel so down, it being winter, but you're in sunny California. Here in the UK we all need to take extra vitamin D as we can never get enough due to a lack of sunlight here. Pain is a pain alright. So sorry you're struggling to cope. Glad Bryan Adams and your kitty are helping a little. X

Kitty, please consider [unless you have kidney and/or liver issues] to consider taking Advil and Tylenol together, that is an MD-approved combination and they sell the combination in pharmacies now.

How are you doing today?
Are things any better?
Let us know, okay?

Take Solace that you have kitty to confide in ...... some can’t manage to take care of one .
Just wish to offer a big hug to you ,

Hey, Kitty, I’m so sorry you still hurt so much. I’ve had chronic pain for about 25 years now and I have certainly cried myself to sleep some nights from the pain and hopelessness of it. Pain, in addition to being painful, makes you tired, prevents you from sleeping, saps your energy and causes depression.

There are a lot of things that can help pain. But what I found is that so many of them don’t help much by themselves and I think each person has to find a combination that works for herself. This can take a very long time and can make one feel quite hopeless.

Incidentally, petting a cat is one of the things that can reduce pain, or at least the anxiety around pain which makes the pain worse.

I still can find myself in tears when one too many things breaks, or whatever.

On the practical side, if your walker is broken, whatever it is that California has for Medicaid/Medicare, may pay to fix it or replace it.

As others have pointed out, lots of us here have had terrible pain. You aren’t alone in that struggle. Just keep posting.

My kitties in the past have always known when I was sad.

They’ve always helped me in their quiet way.