There is absolutely nothing wrong with a good cry, especially in the shower. It can actually be a good way to reduce stress and anxiety. It can also be cathartic, a good way to release trauma.
I have a tremendous fear of "breaking down" in public, so that too causes me a lot of stress and anxiety. My early childhood was far from good, and crying, even as a small child never brought me any kind of support, and often made things worse. I went a long time just doing everything I could to make sure all of that just stayed bottled up inside. It wasn't until therapy as an adult that I started learning that Crying is OK and nothing to be ashamed or afraid of.
The first time I spontaneously just broke down and cried like that, I thought something broke inside me and that it would never stop. I was seriously frightened at the loss of control (which I assumed at the time was permanent. It wasn't, it was just a bunch of bottled up emotions that needed to come out. I'm still learning how to self-regulate feelings and emotions, but its getting easier and the crying episodes have decreased.
ANYONE, on the spectrum or not needs to vent and release that kind of emotional build-up from time to time. There is nothing wrong with that.
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thats very reassuring. thank you for sharing that!! this is such a supportive forum