cold feet literally
feet been cold lately. wearing 2 pairs of socks. while sleeping, five long sleeve shirts and a jacket and five blankets and sweatpants and shorts and space heater on and still cold.
how do the homeless in alaska cope with the cold? during the daytime, it's about 50 degrees fahrenheit where i live. much warmer than some other areas.
feet been hurting way too much. so much, i wonder how much longer i could hold that job. but not being able to stand eliminates a lot of jobs: restaurant, retail, sales, manual labor. esp since, zero job skills.
sometimes, after 20 minutes, try and fail to defecate. usually, after breakfast, immediately defecate in my Pigpen. Then get to work and defecate again before work. paranoid i need a colostomy bag.
my worthless corpse dysfunctional already and only 39. it's only getting worse.
exhausted all the time, but that is not new.
physically weak and slow.
annoying how idiots have the nerve to laugh @ me.
starting the past couple of days, hands and feet have been frozen in the morning sometimes. november through february cold as f**k in my house.
when i wear gloves it makes it hard to type on the keyboard.
doctor said i have to get tested for Reynaulds Phenomenon
end of january 2024, my sister told me the PGE (electricity) bill was too high and after that i unplugged the space heater (which only heated the hallway anyways), and haven't touched it since then.
however, my sister came over and the first thing she did was open a window.
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If it's from cold you could maybe get a space heater or two so you can set it up to keep your area warmer...my aparment does not always have good cold protection so I also use a space heater sometimes. But idk you can likely find somewhat affordable ones at hardware stores. We have single pane windows and so curtains we put up help to keep the heat in but sometimes we still need a space heater.
But if your feet are all numb and stuff currently could be worth if you can get to a hospital getting that checked out, like if even being warmed up they are they still numb after you warm them up? or does that help? For sure if your house does not have good heating a space heater can be really helpful to stay warm. I have one in my apartment I don't have to use it very much but on extra cold days it is helpful.
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