My aspergers and adhd makes me not think properly

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In specific classes especially social places I get so stupid and awkward It’s annoying and i get picked on for it. Sometimes idk how to respond to someone or when i talk i end up forgetting or stumbling over my words. I do stupid werid movements.

In photography class i’m always asking the teacher for help and constantly when we gotta do a project i always mess up and the whole class ends up thinking i’m some idiot disabled kid. Someone even said i looked special ed. People then bully me and mistreat me

Today i played with 2 aquitance a uno card game and the whole time i messed up on some things and made stupid moves in the game and wouldn’t know when it was my turn and one person kept saying i had a low iq and was gonna call me special cuz i was just stupid and didn’t know most things on what to do. One last thing i get startled so easily with loud sounds sometimes and people laugh and think i’m autistic for sure. I remember in karate class one person told me they thought i was autistic and was planning to bully me with it. Anyways those aquitances were talking about s**t about me i’m science class and my crushes friend called me werid. People called me ugly many times and i wear a hoodie now and everyone knows i wear it cuz im ugly I still get bullied for it too no one cares about me at school

I'm not exactly sure how to respond to this but since its your first post, Welcome to Wrong Planet!

It makes me sad that you feel like this.
I am 58 and wonder what i would have done in the same situation. For sure, it would upset me and i would probably have avoided these people as a result, which would have caused me to likely be alone. I know this happened when i was in school. What i would say to you for your future. Try to surround yourself with kind understanding people. Choose your friends carefully. Being around people that dont appreciate you or who are mean to you, will affect your confidence, self esteem and could cause you anxiety amongst other things.
Do you share with others that you have an ASD? It puts a lot of pressure on us when we keep it to ourselves, we may feel we cant be our true selves. Its ok to ask the teacher for help. Have you told the teacher? I wish i had known that i had an ASD when i was young. If others dont know why you struggle with certain things it may be difficult for them to understand.
Keep telling yourself that you are as good as anyone else. Keep talking to those that love and understand you. Sending you a big hug x

That is a horrible toxic ignorant and likely abusive environment. I'd recommend amazing support (got some elsewhere in your life?) and self-confidence (practice, practice and amazing support elsewhere in your life) to be able to own it - "actually, I'm working on my absent-minded or clumsy professor image" or whatever would work for you...

I am trying some different medications and one doped me up last month. That was fun ...not. Thankfully I have decades of experience behind me so I was able to have patience for myself when others didn't. I could set expectations. Still, it's so very hard. I've done my fair share of meltdowns in public when being judged in the face of sensory or anxiety overwhelm. I have a therapist now who helps me recognize my sensory or anxiety overwhelm and then articulate this to others --- ideally with humor but sometimes straight out if needed. I have spent so much of my life uncomfortable to save others from discomfort, it's time for me to SHARE.

Yes, in times of stress, we can't think properly: Stress response. Sometimes in a simple situation at work I will close my eyes to reduce input just enough and concentrate on what I am saying --- it might look odd, but I'm doing what I need to do, people ----.

My entire life I have been obviously "eccentric" (unless I am in my quiet observant mode). At my previous hostile workplace I did not self-identify as neurodiverse. At my new more inclusive workplace I have identified as neurodiverse to my closest coworkers. To folks in general I openly talk about my differences (oh, you know, it takes me 5 clicks to share screen with Skype b/c I'm the anti-intuitive use case for that feature and I definitely am not going to be able to talk at the same time, so hold that thought for 10 seconds.) I got a PM the other day, "You are so funny, it's good to have that, especially to get the day going" (early staff call) --- well, laughing through the tears over here...