Thank you all so much for a warm welcome. I was expecting to have to fight my doctor to get a referral. But instead he just looked at me and said "yep ok, let's do the paperwork".
I've been doing a lot of trauma therapy over the last few years. To my surprise as my c-ptsd symptoms became more controlled, other things like stimming, and sensory sensitivity, actually increased. Then a few weeks ago I realised that these things are the real me. I'd thought they were trauma responses, but they were me all along.
So now I need to work out how to be a happy autistic. How to listen to my body. I wonder how much of the constant anxiety I feel is actually my suppressed autistic traits desperate to get out.
I've never been able to follow fictional books. I can't make the pictures in my head, and just get confused. So as a child I became obsessed with reading the old Doctor Who novelisations. I knew what everything looked like, so I could follow them. That was as good as it got in pre VCR days . So mostly I'm a classic doctor who nerd, but I also enjoy star trek (especially next gen and DS9), Star Wars (until George Lucas started messing them up), Sapphire and Steele (not strictly sci-fi), Lord of the Rings (definitely not sci-fi), Harry Potter (although I was an adult when they came out), Blakes 7, old Sci-fi B movies. I loved Stranger Things and Wednesday (from the more up to date stuff). I'm really enjoying the latest Picard season.
Anyway, thanks again for everyone's messages. They gave a little warm glow.