People say if you are ghosted constantly its your fault

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i dont know how to make friends. i cant just be like hey whats ur fav color. i dont know how to make a convo flow. they never taught that in special classes. im 27 in college but from daycare to grade 4 i was in special needs. all we did was movies, clap hands and stupid stuff like cursive. everyone i meet ghosts me. i was friends with this very sweet adorable girl on wechat. i am in canada and shes in china. she told me she has a gf and she even said she cherishes our friendship. we met in 2019 and 2022 dec she unfriended me that time she said she said she was hacked. this time it happened again. i sent her a request asking if i did something wrong. another person a philipina (gemini) she blocked me. before she would just leave whatsapp and come back. idk whats wrong with me. am i boring? i dont talk about nsfw stuff or anything like that. i try to cheer people up her cat (the wechat one) passed away and i tried to consoler her.

and then some people say maybe its something with you. like what? is it a blob over my head? dark energy? aura?
i wanna go back to special needs and do ul ul ul (stimming).
i sometimes wish i was still in special needs and never ever used the internet.
no such thing as best friends forever like in spongebob or cartoons.
all fake. why have we come to this.
like its your fault if u say something inappropriate or threaten someone. but what if you are friends for years and then they block you. like wth?
im seething and so betrayed.

On a discord server of venting, someone said this:

Honestly, not being rude, dont take it personally but it sounds like a you problem
like on reddit i saw a wholesome video of a guy (he seemed special) and his internet gaming buddies they flew from idaho to his state of cali to greet him for his birthday. i am like why cant i have lifelong internet friends like that.
when i was in elementary we learned how to make friends like oh what if your fav color etc etc.
i just wanna punch a table.

Sorry about that dude. It's always painful when you discover what you thought was a friendship was something else to the other person involved.

As for people saying it's your fault, I look at it like this: If something happens repeatedly to me, then I have to consider that it's something I'm doing, since I'm the common factor. That's not really the same thing as it being my fault, if my intentions are good, but it encourages me to consider my actions, which I can work on, rather than festering and concluding that other people are just awful.

It seems to me that friendships that begin and exist purely in the digital realm seem to me to be inherently less strong than irl friendships. When we're online we're only sharing an aspect of ourselves, and only seeing an aspect of another person that they want us to see. When that becomes too hard, it's very easy to cut off people who you don't have any physical access to.

I don't know how people make friends in real life, but I think if you can do that, you might end up with friendships that last longer. I hope you can.

The only friend groups in real life I have are one from my college's anime club and another one from the same college (this one since 2015 and we hang out every other week but due to Ramadan and all and my final year we cant much).
most of my friend group is the same ethnicity and culture as me.
and quite religious.
other than that i usually just frequent forums like reddit and i found about this site.
and im sorry if i am a burden to everyone here.
in high school they would say if you're depressed talk but when you do people go ugh we dont wanna hear it.

nah nah im not saying you give the impression. you all are awesome people.
im just saying you know how like when you keep being rejected you start thinking maybe im cursed etc etc
i am learning mandarin (since 2020 myself now with teacher) but because of this and another girl from my college who ghosted me and blocked (my fault that time i guess due to spamming. im an idiot) i am losing motivation now to continue even though im paying for italki classes.
also i feel like if i visit china some day i will go for few days only cuz i dont want to disclose i have autism as they dont recognize it.

I am learning Mandarin because the writing is super cool. The culture, for the friends, and I wanted to visit her and some other friends in China. I have not been on a plane since 2008.
I want to travel again take in the sights. I had a crush on the girl but never told her as I was afraid. she said she had a girlfriend. and i was like wow (i am not one to steal or ruin relationships. one of my guy friends when his gf is with us say at a restaurant and the guy uses the washroom i dont talk to her unless i have to ask somethijng important).
and the girl from china is the same faith as me.
also learning mandarin is useful as the economy and all. i learned french from grade 6 to grade 9 when i moved to toronto from los angeles in 2007. french is useful if you in government job but i feel mandarin is more useful as a billion people speak it.

also because i was learning japanese and korean before but found it to be useless as usually people learn japanese for anime and korean for kpop and kdramas (i do watch anime and kdramas time to time) but the writing and grammar is hard. chinese mandarin grammar is easy like english. not to mention that most kanji came from chinese and i have this ability to quickly memorize chinese characters.
like i want to visit china and meet friends. see how theyre doing etc etc.
and maybe also sight see

It can be one's own fault.
If one constantly makes other uncomfortable one will be ghosted often.

Not saying that's relevant to OP, but broadly speaking it very well might be one's own fault.

It's worth recognizing that you would be the common factor. I do think that it's a step too far to say that it's automatically your fault if it's happening regularly. I'm sure there's a lot of other possibilities including confirmation bias and just bad luck. But, I certainly would start looking there as that's the one factor that's clearly involved.