autisticelders wrote:
I don't use substances. I have learned that to rely on drugs is to expose myself to harm and abuse of my health and maybe my safety due to lack of judgement and impairment it can cause.
I control how I am exposed to social situations, being careful to avoid forcing myself beyond the level of comfort I experience.
I have learned I can do ok with one or two, maybe 3 other people in some environments, but that my processing simply can't cope with forcing myself to do many things others expect of me (or that I used to try to do without success and with much distress).
I do not avoid social situations, I just choose which kinds are healthy for me and seek those out, avoiding others which are too hard, upsetting, dangerous, etc.
I wish I can control things. I just move to a group home cuz of money, everything in California is soooo expensive. I already got social anxiety, keep crying, little meltdown, wanting to pull out my hair, being sooo overwhelmed, wanting to die, staff in the group home think they know better, refusing me stuff.