Must be that time of month again...

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Because I feel like literally murdering other human beings.

I have several signs myself;

-Breaking out

-That oily feeling that seeps from my face and into the back of my head that gave me this stupid helpless feeling that will make me feel stupid and helpless

-Waking up as if I got hit by a truck

-'Lowness' for no particular reason and can mistaken me for having depression

-Just crappy stamina...

-Being less reliable than usual until I start bleeding, physically more especially

-Either I'm dealing some type of PMDD, which is 2 weeks of lowness and crappy waking up that can extend to 4-5 weeks, or actually dealing with PMS for 3-7 days long.
-Or both; that PMS would eventually end the earlier PMDD-like symptoms and replace it with PMS


Regardless, I'm taking BCPs right now.

At the moment taking it as 'intended' because of fricking breakthrough bleeding and I couldn't attempt to 'skip periods' yet until I find another brand...

And I get signs before the breakthrough bleeds. It's almost like PMDD-like or/and PMS minus the physical stuff except for cramping...

I hate this... "Sensitivity"... The point of me taking those pills is to get away from it.

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Right now I just hate the whole world and every human it it... more so than usual.

I never know quite how mine will effect me, idk sometimes I get nauseous before it, sometimes I get cramping first and sometimes I don't notice anything till I wake up to bloody underwear. Sometimes I feel like I am way too emotional for a couple days because of it, but not always. Just kind of seems like a crapshoot of what effects it will have or not have.

My period started yesterday. I guess I should be glad at least that my brain thinks my body is still young and healthy enough to carry a baby.

Random Fact: Periods and spotting through the birth control placebo are not the same.


There's periods; because the egg released is not fertilized.

Bleeding while taking birth control pills are not periods; it's called breakthrough bleeding.
It's actually the destabilization of the endometrium lining and it sheds -- it's possible to entirely not bleed by skipping the placebo and let it remain stable by taking the same continuous amount of hormones.
However, there are times, for whatever reason, one can bleed as light as few days of spotting, to as almost intense as period bleeding just as long or longer, and in some cases; spot for several days or weeks long. It is not a very known side effect.




My body "adjusted" to the BCPs I've been taking.

Sure, the heat intolerance and intense gut issues are gone; so does my med induced alexithymia along with how I perceive and handle stress.
So; my body 'has to bleed' every month. But I don't WANT my damn body to 'adjust'. Frick that.

Sure; I'm no longer borderline aggressive during surges of energy after periods, but I'm still downing and going moody and intolerant during the pseudo-luteal phases an entire week before needing to breakthrough bleed.

Searching to the net tells me there's yet an account that says that there is such thing as having a PMS version of breakthrough bleed.


Why the frick do I still have a 'cycle'??
Isn't the point of taking these pills is to NEVER have to deal with the damn cycle???

The only reason of this overall progress at all is that the damn stories in my head are all over and got rid of the emotional hung up.
The hormonal issue remains still.



Perhaps I should change my diet soon.
Perhaps I'll find another brand of pills over the counter (while it's still legal nationwide).

But I WANT TO FEEL "NOTHING" AGAIN.

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