I cannot due to fluctuating energy levels and unpredictable mood and energy.
My day/week/month can be as predictable as it can be, but my body cannot or won't allow it.
And I cannot simply plan things around my body. Else, I'd be doing all or nothing by kept guessing.
If only it's as simple as sleeping early and longer -- sometimes my upper respiratory cannot let me by sneezing all night for hours.
Sometimes my gut and the reflux, that antacids and snacking on almonds can only do much.
Sometimes it's because of what I did, sometimes it's because of the weather, sometimes it's the room that I don't own or control, sometimes it's just hormones.
I wish my body does not 'adjust itself' to the BCs I'm taking.
I'd rather have the initial effects long term than the so-called natural yet unwanted state.
I can only have schedules that are mostly negotiable and flexible. Self care system that can be as complex as my body kept dictating. Which I've yet to fully mapped out.
After years of "full time work routine";
Working part time/s only, spacing between days, and no early hectic mornings so I prefer to start close to noon or later.
Deadlines had to be much further because I cannot function well at last minute.
Else, I'd be doing nothing or dwindle until I slept for 10+ hrs in the afternoon since my sleep never makes up for whatever energy loss throughout the day if I worked full time.
Certain amount of stress would trigger this stupid constant and unasked for state of urgency that distorts my prioritization, sense of time into thinking I'm too slow (in turn making time too fast), becoming clumsier, forgetful, less reliable, and vulnerable to moodiness...
... It's a wonder why I hadn't developed anxiety disorders for dealing with chronic stress while being autistic.