3 months after moving out my personality has changed loads

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Things I remember about my pre-June 2024 self:
- Extremely shallow and takes everything at face value.
- Thinks philosophy is boring only cares about giving off a certain image and doesn't question anything.
- Has meltdowns every day and is very very very histrionic.
- Very honest and open about himself so gets took advantage of.
- Diary entries are like "Today I spend £20 at Tesco on wispa bars and mccoys crisps" or "[insert young person] laughed at me AND NOW I HATE MYSELF BOO BOO BOO!"
- Extremely aware of surroundings way more than most people.
- Sleeps 10.30am to 8.00am, has strict meal times and strict exercise schedule imposed by himself, has strict showering times etc (gets very angry if he is unable to do these routines even just once).
- Always shows up for educational institutions on time is never absent.
- BMI 17-20 (yet somehow looks average-sized or even chubby despite having an underweight or almost underweight BMI).
- Could be around people all day long.
- Needs constant validation and reassurance.
- Can't think for himself.
- Doesn't do drugs.

Since moving out in June 2024 I have gradually became more like this:
- Does all-nighters pretty much every night.
- Weed addiction.
- Can't stand being around even one human being for even a few seconds.
- Likes leaving the house for hiking/walking/travelling/shopping/sightseeing/burning calories/etc but must have 3-5 hours to recharge when he gets home otherwise he gets angry.
- Sudden uncontrollable obsession with psychology/philosophy.
- Prone to dissociation.
- Diary entries are mostly philosophical rants.
- BMI 16.3 and also eats to live doesn't live to eat.

I don't think peoples personalities are supposed to change this much this quickly even when they are young adults that get their own place to live. WTF happened?