detached
dissociated
"left hand did not know what the right hand was doing"
clinical depression, asperger's
can't concentrate
should not be operating heavy machinery
way too many "instructors" have had the nerve to bark @ me "pay attention!". (rolls eyes). those dumbfuck ass holes know NOTHING about autism, depression, or anything like that. they just assumed that i "could" be paying attention, but maybe i "was" doing my "best", but my "best" was, by far, much worse than they assumed that it was!
f**k my aikido instructor Ashley, f**k the jujitsu instructor, f**k any other idiot that had the nerve to bark @ me "pay attention!", s**t!