Page 1 of 1 [ 15 posts ] 

laconicsight
Emu Egg
Emu Egg

Joined: 10 Nov 2024
Age: 37
Gender: Male
Posts: 1

10 Nov 2024, 6:37 am

Hi there,

So I am a mid-thirties guy and I probably have high functioning aspergers. Curious to see if any of you share some of these things I struggle with and traits that I have.

These might be more general
- I have periodic obsessions, could be a person, book, game, period in history etc.
- I could go on and on about that obsession but people usually like to remain on the surface level of things we discuss.

This is more detailed, communication issues:
- I have a hard time translating my knowledge and thoughts I know into a format for social interactions.
- All the things I read and understand is processed for me to use for myself, it's never processed with the intent of sharing.

Whereas other people have their ideas in shareable format, I need to do that on the spot? Therefore it comes out a lot less detailed than I would like.To compensate I usually start dumbing down my ideas and mimicking how other people in the convo would find the input digestible. This happens unconsciously usually, they then underestimate what I know, which is obvious and frustrating. Working on taking the time to respond. I am to lazy to sort my thoughts and process on the spot to make crystal clear what I mean.

Some additional struggles
- I am way better at generating my arguments in text than in speech.
- It feels like I process the wrong stimuli and input in social situations, there is too much noise. When writing I can shut out the noise and focus on the arguments.
- I hate group interactions, rather be 1 on 1. When the place is loud I get distracted easily, too much input.
- I have a hard time with time-controlled tests, I can still perform well though. My desire to be exact and really figure things out, it makes it hard to control my executive functions efficiently. With time I can do anything.
- I overthink things like eye-contact, and all other non verbal behavior.
- I really like my autonomy, I like doing things on my own. I have so many diverse interests and things I like to do and learn. It's baffling for me that people can be bored being alone.
- I have never been able to do office politics, and conforming to any unwritten rules or hierarchy that I have not made up myself. I can force myself to be a good soldier for just 2 months max. This is the reason I am self-employed.
- I don't have any friends, I used to have a small group of friends but over the years we started to differ too much.
- I have a very hard time making friends and relating to "normal" people. I get bored easily and I don't like pretending to want to hang out with someone. When people are weird or wired differently I can easily be around them.
- I have a very hard time mantaining any sort of connection with people, unless it's a girl.

On the other hand
- I can socialize quite easily and no one notices anything. People give feedback that I am easy to be around and open. (My internal experience is quite different)
- I have had many woman in my life and usually the relationships I have with them keep me company
- Under the right circumstances I can be loud, energetic and fun to be around.

Thanks in advance for taking the time to read my struggles.



timf
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 25 Oct 2013
Gender: Male
Posts: 1,089

10 Nov 2024, 11:43 am

Here is a free pdf booklet that you might find interesting

http://christianpioneer.com/blogarchiev ... e_2017.pdf

You might also find the Youtube videos of Tony Attwood of interest.



ToughDiamond
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 15 Sep 2008
Age: 71
Gender: Male
Posts: 11,955

10 Nov 2024, 12:27 pm

From your description it sounds likely that you've got ASD, but I wouldn't bother too much about that question unless you have some strong reason for doing so. I'd focus on the individual traits, which are more objective. You're welcome here of course.

But if you're really interested, you could try the Aspie-Quiz by RDOS, and if money is no object you could buy an assessment. I don't recommend Baron-Cohen's AQ test because I'm a nuanced thinker (which is in itself a tad curious because Aspies are supposed to be black-and-white thinkers), so I can't answer the highly reductionist, forced-response questions without feeling that the result will be misleading. Having said that, most people seem to have no problem with the AQ test.



Jakki
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 21 Sep 2019
Gender: Female
Posts: 11,828
Location: Outter Quadrant

10 Nov 2024, 12:31 pm

From what you have written here,..one might be inclined to think you have some form of Autism. 8O .
Therefore am compelled to wish you a nice Welcome to Wrong Planet .
btw , have had inperson conversations , where putting things into Word can be difficult at times .
Even up to m@ny days later , I think of how exactly,would have been the best way to say something .
And wish, I had thought of that at the time. :roll:


_________________
Diagnosed hfa
Loves velcro,
Quote:
where ever you go ,there you are


Auldyin
Butterfly
Butterfly

Joined: 22 Oct 2024
Age: 79
Gender: Male
Posts: 12
Location: SW,UK

10 Nov 2024, 2:10 pm

Hi laconicsight,
that's a very detailed description and I can identify with quite a lot of it. It would seem that you, like me,are officially undiagnosed. The possibility of having a touch of autism never occured to me until I was into my 60's.
"People remaining on the surface level" :- I take that to mean many of them prefer small talk where you must always agree with what everyone else is saying, and if you offer a different opinion you are just being argumentative
How else can we compare ideas and opinions ? (and learn)
"Translation" :- I've lost count of how many times I've said one thing and other people have heard something else.
"Detail" :- Do you mean that people tend to generalise a lot? which is fine, but I think us Aspies like to be a bit clearer on what the question is exactly. Whenever I try to get a bit more detail, I invariably just get a repeat of the original answer.
Like you, I find texting easier than real time chat as that gives me more time to put my thoughts into a more understandable form for ' normal people '
I hope this helps you feel a bit less 'Weird'
Your post has certainly helped me.



Carbonhalo
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 26 Nov 2007
Age: 63
Gender: Male
Posts: 1,968
Location: Musoria

10 Nov 2024, 2:58 pm

laconicsight wrote:
Curious to see if any of you share some of these things I struggle with and traits that I have.


Yes...all of them



ASPartOfMe
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 25 Aug 2013
Age: 67
Gender: Male
Posts: 35,850
Location: Long Island, New York

10 Nov 2024, 3:46 pm

Welcome to Wrong Planet.

I am another person that strongly relates to what you described.


_________________
Professionally Identified and joined WP August 26, 2013
DSM 5: Autism Spectrum Disorder, DSM IV: Aspergers Moderate Severity

“My autism is not a superpower. It also isn’t some kind of god-forsaken, endless fountain of suffering inflicted on my family. It’s just part of who I am as a person”. - Sara Luterman


Double Retired
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 31 Jul 2020
Age: 70
Gender: Male
Posts: 6,118
Location: U.S.A.         (Mid-Atlantic)

10 Nov 2024, 4:00 pm

Welcome to WP! I hope you become a regular here.

I will defer to others regarding whether or not you sound like you are Autistic. It took me 65 years to figure out I was Autistic!

Personally, I liked the AQ test...but as assurance that my suspicion that I might be Autistic wasn't all in my imagination. But I will note that I did not get interested in Autism until well after I was comfortably retired...I did not have to worry about repercussions with my academic or professional lives because they were pretty much history at that point.


_________________
When diagnosed I bought champagne!
I finally knew why people were strange.


autisticelders
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 23 Feb 2020
Gender: Female
Posts: 2,252
Location: Alpena MI

10 Nov 2024, 5:29 pm

welcome, learn as much as you can through books, videos, podcasts, blogs, and the like,
ask questions in forums with autistic folks who can give insights and advice from their own experiences. Take your time as you look into it, there's a lot to sort and diagnosis can give a lot of answers to Why questions of your life, it can be a relief but it also throws almost everything we thought we knew and understood about our selves, our past, and our present state of being into chaos because we have this new perspective through the lens of knowing about autism

. One of the best things about my learning of my autism and my very late diagnosis at age 68 was that I found out I was not the only one, that there were many others here who understood!


_________________
https://oldladywithautism.blog/

"Curiosity is one of the permanent and certain characteristics of a vigorous intellect.” Samuel Johnson


belijojo
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 4 Dec 2023
Age: 21
Gender: Male
Posts: 1,041

10 Nov 2024, 6:49 pm

welcome


_________________
For I so loved the world, that I gave My theory and method, that whosoever believeth in Me should not be oppressed, but have a liberated life. /sarc


P. Zombie
Blue Jay
Blue Jay

User avatar

Joined: 5 Oct 2024
Age: 30
Gender: Male
Posts: 91
Location: Poland

11 Nov 2024, 7:11 am

laconicsight wrote:
- I have a hard time translating my knowledge and thoughts I know into a format for social interactions.
- All the things I read and understand is processed for me to use for myself, it's never processed with the intent of sharing.

Whereas other people have their ideas in shareable format, I need to do that on the spot? Therefore it comes out a lot less detailed than I would like.

Yes, I also feel a lot of info is lost during communication. Was dreaming about some direct mental communication channel, when I was younger (ok, I still dream about it from time to time). I see it that way:
1. My internal representation of info - mostly verbal, but also using "pure ideas" and shortcuts to my general web of associations and beliefs.
2. Translation to public language using lossy compression - many details are removed; ideas transformed to words, which not always works well; associations cut with the hope that the other person will create similar associations. I guess it would be even worse if I were thinking in images.
3. The other person receives my words and translates them to their own internal format, generating more errors.
4. The other person adds their own associations, which in the worst case can completely change the meaning.

The alternative would be to store info already in public language, then you wouldn't need to use online translation and there would be much less losses in point 2. And if the other person used the same format and had similar associations, you could communicate almost perfectly. Well, maybe some people work that way.

laconicsight wrote:
- I am way better at generating my arguments in text than in speech.

Yes, but I guess the main reasons are that I just have more time for translating info from internal to external format, and have access to things I've already written. Writing still doesn't come very naturally - I have to think about almost each sentence.

laconicsight wrote:
When people are weird or wired differently I can easily be around them.

Depends on the type of weirdness/wireness, but yes - "properly weird" people are more interesting and easier to connect with.

There are more yeses to the question if I share things you've written about, but these are the most interesting to me :wink:


_________________
Recently diagnosed with ASD, still skeptical.
Feel free to PM me if you want to or are really bored.

Either overthink or don't think at all - there's no middle way.


blitzkrieg
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 8 Jun 2011
Gender: Male
Posts: 17,433
Location: United Kingdom

11 Nov 2024, 7:38 am

You sound like you have many ASD traits, OP, and perhaps you would meet the criteria for a formal diagnosis?

Welcome to the forum, in any case. :)



Canadian Freedom Lover
Toucan
Toucan

Joined: 16 Dec 2022
Age: 28
Gender: Male
Posts: 262
Location: Vancouver Canada

16 Nov 2024, 3:52 am

Welcome to Wrong Planet,

Many of the things you wrote look like they could have been written by myself, so I'd say there is a very good chance that you are in fact on the spectrum.



AnonymousAnonymous
Veteran
Veteran

Joined: 23 Nov 2006
Age: 34
Gender: Male
Posts: 72,060
Location: Portland, Oregon

19 Nov 2024, 7:14 pm

Welcome to Wrong Planet! :)


_________________
Silly NTs, I have Aspergers, and having Aspergers is gr-r-reat!


jimmy m
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 30 Jun 2018
Age: 76
Gender: Male
Posts: 9,270
Location: Indiana

19 Nov 2024, 8:35 pm

Hi laconicsight, welcome to Wrong Planet.

I have Asperger's Syndrome or Aspie for short. This is sometimes referred to as high functioning Asperger's.

You wrote, "I have periodic obsessions, could be a person, book, game, period in history etc."
Actually this is a good trait. Whenever something catches my attention, I do a deep dive and research the topic and become a subject matter expert.

You wrote, "Whereas other people have their ideas in shareable format, I need to do that on the spot? Therefore it comes out a lot less detailed than I would like.To compensate I usually start dumbing down my ideas and mimicking how other people in the convo would find the input digestible. This happens unconsciously usually, they then underestimate what I know, which is obvious and frustrating. Working on taking the time to respond. I am to lazy to sort my thoughts and process on the spot to make crystal clear what I mean."
In general Neurotypicals only spend about a minute or two on a topic and then move onto another topic and then another topic. By the time I decide to provide my viewpoint on a subject, they have moved on and I am out of place. I find that written communications is a better use of my communications skill.

You wrote, "I really like my autonomy, I like doing things on my own. I have so many diverse interests and things I like to do and learn. It's baffling for me that people can be bored being alone."
Same here. There is so many things to learn. I can never be bored.

You wrote, "I don't have any friends, I used to have a small group of friends but over the years we started to differ too much."
I had two close friends during my lifetime. They were forever friends. Unfortunately they have both passed away. They were probably Aspies. But I did get married have children and grandchildren. So in a way they became my family.


_________________
Author of Practical Preparations for a Coronavirus Pandemic.
A very unique plan. As Dr. Paul Thompson wrote, "This is the very best paper on the virus I have ever seen."