Sometimes I do have to disclose. Like at the ER when I am not feeling well. It's because I am not good at talking and will make things seem not as bad as they are. I just really feel weird when I have to. I sometimes have appointments. I don't really know why. They're like a checkup. They ask about stuff I'm insecure about. My parents want to talk to them without me. The waiting room makes me nervous especially when they're taking about me when I'm not there. I let them though because it's important. I just start to feel like something's wrong with me. There's a lot of questionaires. I got an assessment before.
My parents kind of hid the assessment from me. They say it's their stuff to worry about. I read it once. It makes me feel frustrated. It said I need support if I want to move out. Like I can't live on my own. I might need to live in a place where I am supervised to make sure I'm on medication, fed, taking care of myself. I'm not opposed to it. I was before though. I just feel weird that nobody really talks about it with me. Also I qualify to have support, like someone to take me out once a week and respite care.
I went to a kind of thing once overnight. I don't do well with it. I threw up from nerves, and had some issues. I wanted to go home. I had a meltdown. I wouldn't let them help me shower. I've had other bad experiences too. I did get read to though. That made me feel better.
I have a few diagnoses. I just don't like talking about them to people or people trying to talk to me about them. My mom tried to talk to me about it recently and I just shutdown.
Today, 5:28 pm
