While trying to recover whatever was on my Mac Pro 6.0 (mostly becsux the clarity software from Dexcom to upload my blood sugars to my endocrinologist’s office, I ended up listening to a video regarding Project 2025 goals. As I was listening to who was behind this travesty. (And it hasn’t done my mental health any good, since I was in UPMC Memorial Hospital Emergency room, due to low blood sugars, I ended up telling the staff about my passive suicidal ideation (no, I don’t have a plan for ending it all, other than falling asleep and never waking up.). It earned me a trip to WellSpan/Philhaven’s offices (and I let the staff know during the initial meeting over the phone I WILL NOT EVEN ENTERTAIN THE IDEA OF SEEING A PSYCHIATRIST, DUE TO PAST BAD EXPERIENCES WITH ANTIDEPRESSANTS AND ANTIPSYCHOTICS, I WILL ONLY SPESK WITH A PSYCHOLOGIST, SINCE I GOT A LOT MORE HELP WITH TALK THERAPY.
I have been having problems that were caused by my undiagnosed narcissist father, wher I finally, after doing some research via YouTube videos, (namely Dr. Ramani Durasova, Dr. Jerry Wise, as well as videos by Psych to go, and also being diagnosed by a psych nurse as having PTSD, no thanks to being abused by 3 families of all girls (one family of sisters would beat the living daylights out of me, another family of sisters would try to get in my pants to Jack me off, and the third family of sisters would try were plain mentally and verbally abusive. All of this abuse happened over 50 years ago, especially after all the nightmares I’ve been having lately. It also didn’t help whenever seeing Trump’ nasty mug on the tv didn’t help.
Yesterday, 10:28 pm
