There was so much about autism that I still had to learn, being a bit older was still nothing to prepare me for tribal survival system. So autism is a diversity that isn't governed by having right social looks or aspirations. It's really not a social disorder but indifference which the magnitude can just be shocking.
So at the end of Edward Scissorhands he leaves on his own, he leaves girl behind, the town and returns to isolation. That's so sad thought the little girl, sad no one goes with and wants to depart from shallow town. So little girl grows up but she too is a reject without the Scissorhands, one day entering strange place where no one would go.
In the end Mr. Bean had picked up leeches Nd false friends, even suddenly had Mr. Bean doing karate, and the girl is upset by presence of all these people around, goes to sit in secret garden alone and wonder....
He wanted these fake people, wanted a fake life, to be accepted.... And through hole in wall she disappears quietly unnoticed, and never returns.
And this was hard autism lesson learnt, one that is most valid if perhaps you could understand why?
Another aspect of my being on spectrum is that I don't like to go public and present my ideas, I prefer to art in the shadows and sometimes have view on what people are doing. I don't force myself or my views on others, like Nina another childhood friend from horse riding camp, I'd try call her away to sit by ourselves, but she wanted to see what everyone was doing in the tent, and group was giving foot/stand and walk over our supervisor joke massage. I suppose now Nina has decided to depart from NATO, turning away as max Verstappen wins another race.... Not sure what to say except these people are always fair-weather ed, always latching onto new thing, a two faced pack of wolves that hunt together, and after camp I never saw nina, again, another lost friend.
A repeating theme in my life: the wolves in winter!!
18 Dec 2024, 8:00 pm
