I would like to stop feeling bad sometimes for not having experienced a long term or short term relationship. But it seems hard to do so and it at times depending on what frame of mind I'm in, makes me lose hope because I absurdly think that over time women might lose interest in me and that if they find out about the lack of experience, they'll want nothing to do with me.
We always seem to think some people pressure others when they are young to go out, find someone and have sex before an arbitrary time and age like 30 etc and that if someone gets to that point of life with not much experience through no fault of their own such as being autistic where social ques can be a struggle, we make them out as "social outcasts" or something. I had some friends who were girls one I wanted to be with but wanted to be friends instead while the other wanted a relationship but I didn't feel ready at the time. Also during school, college, and uni I struggled to start conversations or gain confidence socially. All this I can do to an extent now.
I also get tired of the feelings of urgency and desperation to do these things because of the age I'm at now and I know as other people have said it just puts people off and won't date someone like that. I just wish they would go away.
Today, 12:10 pm
