Only myself.
And I'm an unashamed egocentric.
Because I cannot relate to the common stories, common approaches, and common circumstances.
Why should I want that?
It made too many autistics messed up and remain in a pit of whatever.
Whether fictional or nonfictional.
Whether they're in one extremes or so called middle -- they do not belong in a hidden limbo where I reside.
Heck, I barely ever admire any human.
Closest thing I'd ever get towards someone that way is simply outright respect.
Let alone actually be impressed by any. Closest thing I'd get something like that towards anyone is flat out envy.
Rarely ever an autistic gets my respect, never had I ever been impressed let alone be envious towards any autistic.
Because the common stories, while it entices allistics and resonates with other autistics -- it doesn't happen to me, does not appeal to me...
And practically never both.
Sure, the closest thing I'd respect an autistic was basically one of those highly anxious type who doesn't want to be autistic -- and got herself diagnosed with ADHD because she suspected she has.
She's anxious likely because her mom also is. She gets by with what she does while heavily masking.
She's just as emotional as I am, only in a way more different path mostly because of differences between mother's interferences.
Whines a lot about not being a human enough and wanted to join NTs. She doesn't see she's already too human enough.
Will not mention the username. She's no longer active. She finds this forum toxic.
No, I am not in contact with her nor am close to her in any way. Also no, I don't even have particular attachment towards this person. Only that she left a bit of an impression...
What made me respect her is that she ain't a sour grape about it.
And too many opposite parallels of how she couldn't relate to other autistics of particular extremes and common types.
Though, looking back; more like she just doesn't relate to alexithymics, just like I do. Except she doesn't want to be lumped by those cases, and I'd rather be an alexithymic.
For not being a utter zealot that pisses other autistics like accusing others of stopping cure or stealing resources or having a smear campaign against neurodiversity.
That she made her choices -- that's also a big one. That she's also not afraid to express a lot of things.
Well, she masks IRL even at home. But not around posting here.
That, maybe, we can switch lives and be happier that way.
Except we're way both attached towards those around our respective loved ones.
But that is all, really.
Just one username that left an impression on me.
And one that might even be misdiagnosed at that.