Love, Infatuation, And Bonding

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My closest and best friend is a fellow autistic guy I know who lives in Iceland. I realized how much I love and care for him recently. I have an infatuation and attraction but it's not romantic or sexual. The emotions are overwhelming, and I find myself crying over them when pondering over them. I yearn for him and want to be close and meet him. I've never had anyone else I care about the way I do him. I've never had such a strong bond with someone, I feel like I could have known him in another life. It truly seems like we were meant to cross paths. I'm planning on saving up just to see him. He's one of the only people I talked with about my identity struggle.

Life would seem emptier if I lost him. The way I feel can't be described when comparing to other friends I have had. He's straight, but it doesn't matter, my friendship with him is all I cherish. I loathe that continental distance keeps us apart. Can anyone else relate to this love and longing I feel?

Yes, love is amazing. I have a friend that I love like that, we can say anything to each other without judgment and get honest advice on things we are struggling with mentally and emotionally. There is absolutely nothing sexual about it, and that makes it even more perfect. I really enjoy going on adventures with her as we both enjoy the same things, being out in nature on a leisurely walk enjoying the beauty around us as we chat about our lives.