Seriously, stop taking them. You'll only be left feeling like sh*t when the effect is over, with less money and another day wasted. A downward spiral.
Exercise, get out, take a hobby, lift your mood.
You can
"Everyone has his own specific vocation or mission in life; everyone must carry out a concrete assignment that demands fulfillment. Therein he cannot be replaced, nor can his life be repeated, thus, everyone's task is unique as his specific opportunity to implement it."
Viktor Frankl
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One of God's own prototypes. Some kind of high powered mutant never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.