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I feel underestimated right now... mymother said before that she didn't want me on anything, she was so adamant about it before that she told me to tell the people working at my school (who were prying me with nerve pills) to take it themselves... she also said she would get on the phone and tell them to "take their medication and shove it up their ass". I was glas of it then... but now my attitude tob substances, particularly to antidepressants and stimulants, has changed...
One guy said, after I was prescribed antidepressants, that I was normal; I didn't need to be medicated, it would make me spacey and fel like I was walking on air.
Now I really needed the anti-d's, though. I was flattered that he found me normal, but I knew I needed the antidepressants! Jsut because you behave well, or normal, doesn't mean you're in any less pain than someone who's rolling on the ground and banging their head. On the contrary, I might have been in more pain, because I had social anxiety- and as if that and the probable ADD wasn't enough, the social anxiety made me shy to do the hyper stuff I craved for so long, that I NEEDED to do for so long but I was too shy/embarrassed/socially anxious to do. Hence the MAJOR depression.
I feel a bit resentful right now.