So mis-understood

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No one can understand me, even my own family. Right now, all I want to do is die. No one wants me around, as all I do is cause trouble. Everywhere I go, people cower in fear. Thanks to that, I have to stay at home and play video games all day. I have no friends, and can't even make any. What am I going to do? I don't even go to school...

Poor RedMageIngus
Why ?

Fear and trouble and perhaps a bit of rage? Not good combos for making friends. Doing anything to correct them? You can't really expect anyone to do it for you. That's an inner thing.

Depends what the root cause of those feelings are. There might be outside help, in a couple of forms.

Fear, trouble and rage. Yup know them well. Lead me on a self destructive life style for a long time and I never understood why.

RedMageIngus is full of love and happiness, and puppy tails.

when I couldn't go to school anymore, I stayed home and chatted on line. I made friends that way. It may not seem like it, but you are conversing with actual people. Don't run away from how you feel. Feel it, but decide not to act out. Go ahead and cry and scream when you are alone, and then, when you around people, know that you feel like crap, but act like you don't. Aknowledge the fact that everytime someone asks you how you are doing you want to scream and rip their head off- but instead, remember that they are interacting with you and just say that you are feeling loney and stressed. Thank them for asking instead of trying to just get away. (IDK if that's a sinario that actually happens to you, but that's how I always know that I'm depressed. Someone asks me how I feel and I want to get away from them and get angry at them for asking) You feel what you feel, but feeling and acting can be different.

RedMage, you sound just like me when I was 15. Homeschooled and bored with life. I don't know what to suggest when it comes to friends. I can attest that the combination of AS and homeschooling makes it almost impossible. WP is probably your best option until you move out, this is good practice, and we are real people as luckbug said. Just hold on, it'll get better, eventually.

What makes you feel hated? It might help to get it out.

Well, that's the problem. We are real people. There are bound to be some c***s on here, too. I'm sure that's not how the majority of people felt, though.

I thought it was him... I saw a post by him somewhere.

At least you're back. I read your letter elsewhere in The Haven. It's nice to see you found a friend who helped you.