I'm lonely and depressed enough in general. In every weekend it just gets worse. I know that most of my friends are out having a good time, while I'm locked into my room, hatin the outside world and not getting any sleep for almost whole night. I know that they are out there just to get themshelves drunk as a boot, but I've felt that I'd rather be there with them and forget everythig, just for one evening... But I can't. I just can't.
"Day-off sociality" of all kind seems impossible, I don't feel that I could be real friends with anyone.