In my younger, dumber days, I used to go to parties, and have a horrible time, and usually drink too much...get nervous? have another drink! Something happen that you don't know how to deal with? have another drink! etc.,etc.,etc.,
Anyway, it's been a long haul, getting to the "to thine own self be true" phase, and I love it!
I don't do anything I don't want to do anymore, just to fit in. I don't care about fitting in, I care about making my own personal quality of life, what I envision it to be. Parties aren't on the "TO DO" list
I've found my happy place and I'm stayin' in it!
Sorry you have to go to a party Psychedelic
***party tip: this time be cool, be conscious of your previous behavior-just keep remembering how you fled before and it'll help you to not flee again, flirt on purpose and don't run away....life is sweeter when you take a chance
You about had the same experience I have had, I attend smaller parties, and when the party gets to big, I make an excuse to leave early. I drink to much when I go to parties full of people, those I dont know and feel like crap the next day. Cant say I dont have fun, but do have better things to do, if it were not for the booze I would not be able to take it, booze keeps my senses dull and me social, id rather now chill with a few people sober, it took years to learn I dont need to fit in to be happy.