A change for the worse is creeping closer. Luckily this time I see it coming. Someone that's going to ruin my life again as contacted me today. We were friends in highschool and most of college. He is a bad influence to the extent that leaves me on the street and as a outcast( my dreadful unforgivin past). He is someone that does things up until the bitter limit. Keeps me past my curfew and doesn't let me do my responsibilities.
After we were split by, what again, is guaranteed when following what his mind finds acceptable. Unstoppable with my weak nature.
I need a way to let him leave me alone for good.
When he contacted me, my mom answered. He didnt represent himself and got through to me. I lowered my voice to keep from a bad situation since my parents allready made it clear to us that he is to stay far away from me. I made my mind a long time ago that I would tell him off immediately. But what happened was that I told him that he knew he isn't allowed to even phone me. And that I'm not well and pretty much garded in every aspect of what people my age are allowed to. I took his phone number since, get this: he couldnt stay on the line so I had to phone him. He's used to lending money from me and getting me to phone him. Wasting my time as long as his time allows. Before we put the phones down I told him he'd have to be patient since I'm not allowed to phone him and I would see what I could do.
Wish it was easier to tell someone to leave me alone. He's bad news and I know it, deeply.
Pitiful what I did. I just feel hurt and can't seem to hurt someone else even when it's necessary.
About the best plan I tought of yet is to let my dad tell him face to face again to leave me be. It would be the simplest to just try to hurt him in anyway to let him understand that I dont want anything to do with him.
Anything from you people would be of great help. Hopefully gaining a secure future and a path that I choose by my own.
It's just that I know I'm a weak person, even in these desperate times.