I am. I'm afraid of chemicals, contamination and poisoning. Like food, I'll squeeze bags to ensure they are air-tight, because I fear someone tampered with it. I fear ordering things like perfumes or lotions on eBay because I worry they did something to it (though I'm fine with clothes, shoes, purses, etc.) and also toxic gases, air pollutants and mold (indoors). I fear the first vitamins out of a bottle, until I know they're safe from my own experience of not getting sick. Same with antibiotics, I only feel better once I've taken a day's worth so that I know I wasn't given the wrong meds at the pharmacy. And last night when I ordered pizza and wings (New Years celebrating, treat for the kids) they got it wrong and forgot my wings. I watched their every move after the boss yelled at them because I fully expected someone to spit in my wings. I expect people to screw up or be devious.
I know this probably sounds like I'm in need of a therapist, or that I'm some paranoid delusional, but in most other aspects of life I'm just fine. I do tend to get a little shy of sanity when it comes to things I ingest or apply to my body though.
I've had so many bad experiences throughout life (let me specify: childhood) that I have pretty much no level of trust left. I see the world as a dangerous place and I always feel as if I must be in full on mode, never letting my guard down. Oddly enough, no one ever screwed with my food, but I have always had major food issues (sensory/tactile, contamination fears, anorexia, bulimia, etc.).
Anyone else? Any words of wisdom here? Yeah, I know, get a shrink, right? lol
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