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siuan
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02 Jan 2008, 3:38 am

I am. I'm afraid of chemicals, contamination and poisoning. Like food, I'll squeeze bags to ensure they are air-tight, because I fear someone tampered with it. I fear ordering things like perfumes or lotions on eBay because I worry they did something to it (though I'm fine with clothes, shoes, purses, etc.) and also toxic gases, air pollutants and mold (indoors). I fear the first vitamins out of a bottle, until I know they're safe from my own experience of not getting sick. Same with antibiotics, I only feel better once I've taken a day's worth so that I know I wasn't given the wrong meds at the pharmacy. And last night when I ordered pizza and wings (New Years celebrating, treat for the kids) they got it wrong and forgot my wings. I watched their every move after the boss yelled at them because I fully expected someone to spit in my wings. I expect people to screw up or be devious.

I know this probably sounds like I'm in need of a therapist, or that I'm some paranoid delusional, but in most other aspects of life I'm just fine. I do tend to get a little shy of sanity when it comes to things I ingest or apply to my body though.

I've had so many bad experiences throughout life (let me specify: childhood) that I have pretty much no level of trust left. I see the world as a dangerous place and I always feel as if I must be in full on mode, never letting my guard down. Oddly enough, no one ever screwed with my food, but I have always had major food issues (sensory/tactile, contamination fears, anorexia, bulimia, etc.).

Anyone else? Any words of wisdom here? Yeah, I know, get a shrink, right? lol


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02 Jan 2008, 3:48 am

yeah. I get that way too. It's like every little thing bad that has happened to me affects my ability to get close to people. I have lost countless relationships over it. Thinking that they are cheating when really it is me who is doing it.



02 Jan 2008, 3:50 am

Yeah get a shrink. Everyone is paranoid sometimes but being paranoid all the time or about everything is not good so it means they need help.


No I'm not a paranoid aspie. But I'm paranoid about how much fodd I eat and if I felt I have ate too much, I refuse to eat even more and will eat less to get my weight back down again. But I have tried getting over my eating disorder. I think I have done good so far because I am eating more but my weight stays the same thank god. That's because I try to aim for healthy food instead of sweets. I do have a sweet tooth.

Right now I'm paranoid about getting in another car accident but I heard that's normal for everyone who was in one. I'm afraid to drive and will take buses instead on my days off but I'm going to have to drive next week when I go to thrift stores. I can't carry lot of diapers in my arms lol. I buy lot of them when I see them in thrift stores because they are so cheap but I don't buy all of them if they have a lot.



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02 Jan 2008, 3:54 am

I'm mildly paranoid. But having lived with my father for 20-odd years, I'm not surprised. I'm more of a cynical paranoiac, and at least I know how to keep my paranoia in check.


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02 Jan 2008, 4:03 am

Spokane_Girl wrote:
Yeah get a shrink. Everyone is paranoid sometimes but being paranoid all the time or about everything is not good so it means they need help.


Not all the time. Not about everything. Just about food, chemicals and tampering. Most of the time it isn't an issue. Seems to come in spells. Usually correlates with high stress in my life. Maybe it's about control? Who knows.


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02 Jan 2008, 4:04 am

I'm paranoid of being watched sometimes.



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02 Jan 2008, 4:44 am

The thought that everyone may hate me and want me to die and that everyone is plotting against me is always somewhere in my mind. I can keep it quiet by reminding myself of three things:

1. I am not important enough for everyone to hate me and wish to kill me.

2. Besides, not everyone knows me.

3. Even if they did know me, and even if they do want me dead, they are doing a remarkably poor job of killing me.

Still, my guard is never quite down.


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02 Jan 2008, 5:20 am

I used to be really naive as a kid, which I think has something to do with my paranoia now. Trusting too much too young has led to not trusting a lot at 25.


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02 Jan 2008, 10:12 am

No. If anything I'm to overly trusting of people.


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02 Jan 2008, 10:41 am

There's some theory that AS evolved to help protect pre and early human tribes.

The thinking goes that aspie type people were the vitally important ones who guarded the settlement - standing watch and listening out for intruders and threats.

I could expound on how a whole slew of aspie characteristics could be seen as fitting this hypothesis. I'm sure you can too.

But, if this evolutionary functional specialisation is anywhere near true, it could well explain the latter day aspie 'paranoia'. Could it be that we are hardwired to look for threats to our welfare?



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02 Jan 2008, 10:48 am

I've been told I'm paranoid, but it's usually well founded, so I can't trust people, even if I wanted to. Better safe than sorry. I'm not paranoid, I just look for answers to everything, things to do with me, others...everything.

Sometimes I do, however, get a few obsessive thoughts regarding my own safety and other's desire to kill me or something of the sort, which may or not be founded, so I prefer to keep everybody in my field of vision. Sitting in corners gives me some sense of easiness. Bus rides almost always give me minor panic attacks. Eating in cafeterias? No way.


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02 Jan 2008, 11:20 am

I'm not paranoid. I don't trust other people though. I have my reasons for it to. "Better safe than sorry" yeah, just what I was thinking. I'm not afraid of them physicaly harming me as I am of them teasing, gossiping, and threatening. It's really because my mind is preparing for things that have already happened and gone. -.- I don't call that paranoia, I call it normal really. Though, I think it depends on a person's experiance.



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02 Jan 2008, 11:20 am

I get paranoid if someone else is driving me, or if im on a long road trip. I'm paranoid about either A. Getting in a car accident and dieing, or B. that the person driving is going to take me somewhere not previously discussed, or agreed upon.

I am also paranoid that people will think there is something horribly wrong with me.

If im working on music, or researching a special intrest, I get paranoid that someone will call me, or stop by, and inturrupt me.

But then again, ive been in car accidents, Ive been taking places i didn't agree to go, people do think there is something wrong with me, and i am constantly being inturrupted, so I don't think my paranoia is unfounded.


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02 Jan 2008, 11:40 am

I don't trust anyone, but I try to act like I do sometimes because I think there might be advantages to pretending to trust people in certain situations. People usually feel insulted when they find out that you don't trust them, and I don't want to insult anyone.

I'm especially paranoid about authority figures and anyone else in a position of power. I fear that they'll do something to harm me and then use their authority to get away with it. This fear is based on numerous past experiences with people who abused their power.



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02 Jan 2008, 1:10 pm

EvilKimEvil wrote:
I'm especially paranoid about authority figures and anyone else in a position of power. I fear that they'll do something to harm me and then use their authority to get away with it. This fear is based on numerous past experiences with people who abused their power.


Mm. Ditto all of that. Though for me paranoid might not be the right word, but I have a mega case of PTSD from an experience based on this very thing. For me it boils down to the inability to trust anything human.


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02 Jan 2008, 1:12 pm

I get confused sometimes whether it's paranoia, or just strange hallucinations with me.

I think it's more likely strange hallucinations though. :D