Why do I still feel lonely after finding this site?

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I thought once I found some people who have Aspergers I wouldn't feel so lonely, yet I do

I don't know but I feel really lonely too. I don't know if I'll ever bond with another human being.

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Hey ebec11. I have been here for a little over 400 posts and I have not found too many people to share dialogue with. I am very different from most women my age, whether Aspie or NT. I have never fit in anywhere. My interests are just too diverse and I simply cannot chit chat the way many of the Aspies can here.Some of the posters are too young so there is an age difference. I do not have a lot in common with teens that are more on a par with two of my very social NT children. I am not great at advice. I am not looking for a mate. I have never in my life (53 years) had a friend. The only relationships I have ever had involved pets and my three children. At work I am viewed as a worker. I am a tutor as I enjoy helping people with math and literature. I volunteer because I like to give back something to the community. If someone needed my help I am there. But people sense that I am an island best left alone. I am used to this but I do not wish it on other younger people who desire more.

I was shunned in my family for being different. Just not loveable enough. I am neither man nor woman, child nor adult. I seem to exist in a time warp, separated from fellow humans. I have grown to accept this. My books are my constant companions. My pets love me unconditionally, and my children need me as mother. If this is as good as it gets, then I could do worse.

I am writing all this because I would like you to know that I do understand how you feel. I have lived long enough that I feel entitled to make that statement and to be sure it is as accurate and honest as possible.

There. My soul is bared. I hope now you do not feel so much alone.

I bond superifically with people, but I don't feel truly connected. I feel like I'm watching my own life sometimes.

Maybe it's that you're a profound person and you need a deep connection with someone. Perhaps you need someone to talk to you about everything and be open minded or else you feel you're not talking to them at all. You want someone to listen to you. That's how I feel myself.

I think it's the ol' right brain, left brain, dominance thing. Some of us were born to chat, while others would rather read or listen. I am part of the latter.

I'm still lonely too. =(

I equate my loneliness to the fact that I haven't found someone that I can fully trust/follow without feeling guilty or foolish for/about my actions. Everytime I do something to ruin a relationship, even when semi-conscious of the outcome--sometimes it ruins itself. I guess those experiences feed my loneliness which I view as completely irrational.

Loneliness is a stupid feeling. There is no point to it, not with the amount of population this world has. There are billions of people out there, I am certain I can find one who can remove my loneliness.

It is my most irrational thought/feeling.

Either way, despite my pessimism/downside, I always find a way to laugh.

Despite the fact that I found a lot of good friends through the autistic community, I do worry when it gets seen (even if I inadvertently promote this view sometimes by not being exact enough) as a place where autistic people automatically stop feeling alone.

It didn't work that way for me, and the more it was advertised as that, the less well it worked in that way. But I did find some of my closest friends through this community. And now I don't mind coming to communities like this for casually interacting with people, because I already have some closer friends than you can usually get on a public message board. Minus the close friends, I wouldn't find this community fulfilling a desire for companionship or conversation.

I just feel loney, it really doesn't matter if someone else is around, or I am online or not. It is just a feeling I have because I think I don't feel things really so much, anyway, and I think what I call 'loney' is really missing not feeling stuff.

What I DO feel I feel to extremes, just dive into it and rub it all over me because it is a relief to feel something and then I get sad, for the feelings I plug into are anger, frustration, lonliness. . . and romantic love, and that is the best and worse of all!

so lonley doesn't stop when you are in a relationship, if you just feel lonely, and lonely doesn't stop when you are on a chat board. Lonely just feels lonely, and you get over it or you don't.

Merle

There's someone out there for everyone. They're just a bastard to find.