When you get depressed, do you get paranoid?

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I do, and username88/UtukXul does at least sometimes.


I start thinking I'm going to wind up on death row, or in a mental institution, or under house arrest, in a padded cell, in an isolation box, in a straitjacket, strapped to a chair or bed, in jail, in prison, in a psych ward, under someone's custody, dead, murdered, in a behavioral center, a ret*d school, thrown in jail for something I didn't do, thrown in jail for for something I did but it's totally nothing and some loophole categorizes it in one of the bad categories that people go to jail for, fined for not carrying my ID at all times, forced to work for free or for $1 an hour at some work farm or labor camp or "group home", given aversive therapy, given treatment that hurts me or given treatment that has a stigma and that I don't need, restrained, muzzled by the court so I can't write a book about something or speak to the press about it, ordered by the court to live with someone I don't get along with, etc.


I don't want to work. You know why?


1. I worked in a grocery store bakery for $7 an hour. Making lots of cookies and putting lots of pastries in packages, doing the equivalent work of making 20 pies each hour. And one pie at that store costs $7.


2. The governemnt will charge you RENT on your own house. Taxes. Which is just as expensive as paying rent in an apartment; you have to pay like $600 a month. Even if you don't have a mortgage. This is taxes, not the mortgage. And if you don't pay it they will TAKE YOUR house on YOUR land that YOU paid for and KEEP IT FOR THEMSELVES.


The government sucks and I have no respect for them. I'd love to meet someone who has a high-up position in the government so that I could spit in their face.


I hate civic-minded people and I hate the government. I feel oppressed, repressed, censored, kept down.

When I get depressed, I don't get paranoid, I just get the urge to drive myself deeper into the depths of despair - because it's at those times that my barely-subconscious hatred of myself gets to bare its ugly head.

It's hours of fun.

It is a bit daunting to face the working world, but everyone has to deal with it in one way or another. I'm hardly a poster boy for success (took me 7 years to get a 'real' job), but it can be done.

I'm actually on the other side of the equation here; I have a 23-year-old daughter, so I don't know your side as well as I should, but I can see some of the parent's side. Not that she doesn't have some issues.

Heaven knows I don't like taxes either, but no one escapes that, any more than the other. And I remember that you start on the bottom. Everyone does (unless you're from a wealthy family, which I'm not.. jobs on the bottom suck. You can look at it that way, but you can also take it to mean that you don't want to work in sucky jobs all your life, and you want something better. It takes time, and effort, something I'm sure you have plenty of.

There's no reason you can't still look for something that you like, or you find interesting. One of the curses of someone my age is that I have all these mistakes and bad experiences I've been forced to learn from. Hope to have at least someone learn from a bad example...

There's actually only two ways to wind up in an institution; you can be judged 'a danger to yourself or others' (hardly likely there), or you can check yourself in. The second is a lot worse; they're required to hold you for an observation period, whether you're sane or not. From what I've heard, most people find out what the real crazies are like.

hang in there, hope everythign works out.

Not when I'm depressed, I do get paranoid sometimes when I have anxiety attacks.

I'm the opposite: I get paranoid when I am not depressed.

During my depressions, I couldn't care less about anything. When I am happy, I become so terrified of losing that happiness that I become increasingly obsessive and nervous in anticipation of the descent back into misery. The less I truly have to worry about, the more my mind invents wildly far-fetched paranoid ideation as it desperately searches for reasons not to be happy.

I'm paranoid most of the time. Especially when dealing with work, I'm always worried supervisors are having discussions about me. This is especially bad when I get what I think is a "look".

I'm paranoid about being used by the government. I'd rather use the government. That's the kind of person I am, I guess. I may be ret*d, but I don't understand why people put up with this crap.

Yes.

Sometimes. Why did someone say something about me being that way behind my back???

I'm always a bit paranoid. It probably tends to get worse when I'm depressed because I think more negatively ("Oh, he just wants to take advantage of me in some way", etc.).

Yeah depression makes me paranoid. I get a feeling of impending doom like I'm going to get run over by a bus if I walk down the street, or beaten up or I'll get some really bad medical problem. Not good!

Sometimes I obsess about lesser evils to keep my mind off the bigger stuff

Usually I just cry and explode at people.

The only time I get paranoid is when I'm angry. And even then I control it because I know how important reality is when it comes to the reason why I'm angry.

Don't forget though - You're only paranoid because everyone's against you!

Another thing is the world ending. And my parents' constant talk about how the counterculture is becoming mainstream and there are no morals or values anymore and the Book of Revelation is going to come true one of these days and America will be destroyed by the Muslims because Americans worship material posessions, the world as we know it will end, what is becoming of the world we live in? and all that crap did NOT do me good. I never participated in it. SCREW being informed and educated and all that s**t.

I get off the charts paranoid when I get depressed and it happens when I'm not depressed as well. All the time, how fun! I get extremely paranoid about the government being after me for crimes I didn't commit. They told me through thought insertion that I actually control the criminals to kill people all over the world. That is what they tell me but it sounds too weird. Since my anti psychotics were raised, I don't get as much thought insertion which is good news. They also tell me that I have chips implanted in me to control me and read my mind. I can't think. I sometimes forget to think and breathe. Stuff. I get confused for no apparent reason.