I find my Calculus and Analytical Geometry course to be a billion times easier than making friends. Lots of times, I tend to foul up a lot in conversations and I wish there was a formula or a logical structured procedure (like the procedure of a certain science experiment) that I can just memorize that can be followed in making or keeping friends.
One thing is Calculus comes very easy to me because there is always a formula or a logical set of rules to follow like the Product Rule, Quotient Rule, Power Rule, Sum and Difference rule, and the Chain rule (rules and formulas for finding derivatives).
Making friends and especially maintaining relationships is much more difficult for me then math and computer science is. I never could understand even if I try to the best to my ability non-verbal signals such as body language and emotions. In result to that, even trying the best I can, I do however declare myself incapable of being successful in making and keeping friends and relationships.
Another thing is if in Calculus if I make a mistake, I can always erase and start over on the same math problem as in friendships and relationships is like writing with a permanent marker in which is I feel if I make a mistake, even one tiny error, it is irreversible and I just blew my chance for life and the relationship has been destroyed.
I just thought about if I wish to take time off to enjoy myself, I be best at spending all of it all alone.